My life

I seem to only post things about pickup. But that's mostly because those are my most interesting stories. I have a ton of other things flying around my life. I'm in the middle of applying to finish my teaching masters at 3 unis in London. I did my phone interview with my 3rd choice Friday and the guy said I'm basically in. So I'm pretty pleased about that. I was so smooth on the phone. Game has really helped me with interviews and confidence in that arena. I am working on getting my other 2 applications sorted this week. I am waiting on transcripts now mostly. I am also still trying really hard to move into London as soon as possible. I have a ton of tutoring work sorted for the Summer and I think that I'm going to be teaching at an English camp for 2 weeks starting on Saturday. Just a little fun time to get away from it all. I plan on using that time to mostly work on writing music and my new podcast with Sasha.

100 Pushups

This website is amazing.

I started my challenge last week. At the starts I could barely crank out 21 in a row. In 5 more weeks I will be able to do 100. It's wicked hard. I can't wait to see how this turns out tho. It only takes 30 minutes or less a week and it's totally worth it. I'm keeping track of my stats and I will post my final results on here in a few weeks. I think it's a great program and I recommend everyone do it no matter what. It's a great accomplishment.

My Relationship with Sasha

So I have been hanging out with this guy a ton lately and you may have noticed that I've starting linking my posts to his version of the same events. I'm hoping that Soul will start his blog soon so that I can do the same thing with him. It's really funny to read different versions of the same event. Even though we met 2 weeks ago tonight, I have spent the night at Sasha's like 6 times. People think that we are childhood bestfriends, lovers, house mates, cousins or brothers. We have a symbiotic form of comedy. I already helped him out with a sketch and helped him write some lines. It's kind of a cool way to express my comedy. Maybe I will write more jokes for/with him in the future. Expect to see a lot more dual posts with him and I, at least until he moves back to Canada. There is also the strong possibility of us living together in Moscow in a year. This guy is a legend and has a really unique perspective on a lot of things. We are going to start a podcast together which I will be announcing in the next week or two. It will be informative, but more importantly, HILARIOUS!

Eric Clapton, Hyde Park and the Rat

This could be a super long FR, as we (mostly Sasha) opened 20-30 sets on Saturday. He was in a sketch Sunday with a toy rat on a string, so on Saturday we took a stack of flyers with us and took that rat for a walk in the park. Turns out there was a big concert on, so we worked the crowd for maybe 8 hours. It was nuts. I will focus on the highlights.

I saw a Polish girl with a flyer for a Master's Course in London. Since I just did my first MA phone interview the day before it was totally on my mind. I ended up talking for her for maybe 30 minutes. I only left because Sasha needed more flyers. When I'm talking about something I'm interested in, it's so easy to be comfortable. I think that's an important lesson. I got her number, but she moved to London 4 weeks ago and lives with her bf so I think it's cold.....

Later on we opened a 3set. I got some pics of Sasha with his girl. He was on a different page than me. He really pushed the escalation, while my girl was dating the other 2 girls closest friend. So it was impossible for me to escalate. Eventually they turned from loving him to hating him. I stayed in set bc my girl was actually a really nice person. She is the first Croation I have ever met. She kept pouring red wine down my throat. After Sasha left the other 2 girls were hating on him. Then they started talking about how only beautiful people should date beautiful people and ugly people should stick together. I was really surprised at the time, bc the main girl talking was a solid 5. My HB was the only one staying out of the talk. The other 2 kept saying how her and her boyfriend will have the most beautiful babies to her though....

When I thought about it later I realized that the other 2 were expressing their own physical insecurities and also tryin to wedge between me an the Croation girl. Who they actually barely knew. They talked about how she was their friends first girlfriend ever and how he would be afraid to ever break up with her. I see the writing on the wall with that one. I got the girl's facebook and she already added me. The other two tried to stop her, but she was cool.

The really amazing thing that I learned was that two girls who ejected Sasha because of his fast screening process turned out to be really low value people. They were shockingly superficial and lacked personalities. If I had left when he had, I would have thought he lost a good set. But now I have a lot more respect for his fast-screening style.

One last set. We opened up 4 American girls with about 15 guys (nerds) sitting right next to them. I decided to try and overcome my limiting belief, but I think it might be real. American girls suck so bad. When a girl says she's American it's like her telling me she has 2 dicks. I want out of that set. I plowed and got a bunch of pictures with these girls etc, but the whole time I felt like I was trying to game pretty losers. They were even from the worst sorority my uni had. After 25minutes we ejected from pure boredom. Sasha was never able to succesffuly distract more than 2 of the obstacles at any time for me. And he is one funny bastard. I think that tells you all you need to know!

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

So after we leave the club around 1ish we start hunting for the bus home. We see two super hot babes changing shoes outside a club. We each open one at the same time. My brunette turned out to be way hotter on closer inspection. We have a good chat and she is actually really friendly. One of the nicest girls I've talked to in ages. Really interesting and we quickly built rapport. Sasha's conversation wasn't going as well. After about 5 minutes his girl grabs mine to go to another bar. Sasha is like we're going with them. So we tell them to walk in with us to get past the bouncers quickly. He tells me that both girls have a boyfriend.... Now this ruined my state instantly. I have a limiting belief in this area. But also he shouldn't have said it to me. I was really escalating with my girl and she certainly never mentioned a boyfriend. I told him about this later and he agreed that it was a mistake.

I still tried to plow through. We caught up with the girls at the bar. Chatted for a few more minutes and pushed our closes. I got a number and he got a facebook. I have a feeling that my close is super cold, but I haven't actually tried it yet. Maybe I'll text the girl today. She was really cool and beautiful. I was so thrown by the bf news that I didn't even get a pic with her. How shameful I know.

So we head back out to the bus stop and end up waiting there for about 40 minutes for the wrong bus! There is some 40yearold chick there. I'm super in state so I immediately push. Within about 2 minutes me and Sasha are hugging her from opposite sides. She was definately DTSR. Unfortunately, Sasha chickened out. He just took some pics of me making out with her. She was super aggressive and I almost choked on her tongue. I can only imagine how he is going to desdribe this all in this blog.... Too bad his camera doesn't have a flash. Phew!

Friday Night Fate

So Mr M invites Sasha out to chill with him, 2 former entourage guys and some American girls. I am allowed to come along. Ha! It is all the way down in Clapham. So we get down there and it turns out the club is near a closed station. So we go to Clapham South and check out some bars. The entire chav army was out. I was afraid to game in these clubs. So we get a bastard taxi to Mr M's club and of course we get there 10 minutes to late to get in free. Wish we'd known it was free before 11. We meet the guys. It's like 10 entourage guys and no girls. The club is totally empty. It's nice to see some of my old homies etc. On the dance floor I see a sexy shot girl and she walks by and eye fucks the shit out of me. Holy crap! It's the shot girl from 2 weeks ago. She is a really sexy blond from my spitroast night. I immediately number close her. She goes on and on about how she lost me, got fired from that club and thought she would never see me again. It was so crazy. She invited me to see her the next night, but she is working! I don't wanna hang around while she works you know? Later on I run into 3 entourage guys gaming her and I roll up and I'm like hey baby. I just wanted to impress them. He He!! Anyways, she texted me a coupla times today. I'm trying to score the Day2, but we'll see what happens.

Brick Lane and Pizza Massacre

So Sasha and I head out to brick lane to day game and shop for some stuff to make his house more woman-friendly. So we go to brick lane, which was absolutely desolate. I see one girl walking around with a little suitcase. I run after her (because Sasha really pushed me) to find out what's in it. I chat for 3ish minutes and it's going so well that I run out of things to say. I'm still really nervous during the day and I hesitate so much. She was my only good set all day long.

Sasha decides we have to get some pizza so we go to sit down in some place. He starts joking with the waitress trying to get cheaper pizza. He thought he was being hilarious and it was funny, but I wasn't sure if it was totally calibrated. Then some guy who was on break stands up and becomes our waiter. He comes over and asks what we want to drink. I ask for some ice water and the guy is like we don't do ice. Now I didn't want to even be in this pretentious joint, but who doesn't do ice? Sasha goes "The don't give you ice to force you to pay for a drink if you want something cold." Right in front of the dude. He didn't like that at all. He comes back with two child sized glasses of water. I mean they looked like they came with an E Z Bake oven. What the hell?

So Sasha makes a comment about the smallest glasses on earth. And the guy goes into a rage and starts saying if we can't behave we gotta leave. Him and Sasha start just escalating and it's getting pretty real. He accuses Sasha of hitting on the waitress. Now the problem for me is that Sasha just joking sounds exactly like Sasha gaming. He's a comedian, what do you expect? Sasha calls the girl over and says was I hitting on you? And she says she wouldn't say no. I almost jumped in and said girl you're not pretty enough, but I was trying to avoid jail. The thing just got outa hand and we got thrown out. I mean the pizza guy was a total dick. I think part of it was that I started gaming his girlfriend while he was getting our water.

But I'm not sure. It was at least 90% Sasha's fault. Boy was he mad when we left. I wanted to jump in but I would have only escalated the problem. Sometimes guys can be so lame. He wanted to look tough I guess. I mean if they guy had taken a swing it woulda been the end of the world. Sasha looks like a wimp but he can kickbox. Anyways it didn't come to that. But later when Mr M was asking Sasha about his daygame technique I suggested they go for pizza!!!

Finally Cured???

So yesterday I got a pic in my email from my oneitis back in America. It was a pic that would have totally made me miss her a few months ago. But I felt nothing. It's really strange. Now I just feel a sadness where I used keep my love for her. It's a new feeling. I looked at a couple hundred pics of her with Sasha to see how it affected me. I didn't get sad at all. I think I might be finally emotionally detached from that poisonous relationship. I still have a ton of fond memories, but I think they are finally firmly in the past. It only took me 6months to really get free, but it's totally worth it. Maybe I will feel something different if I see her in person, but to be honest it's totally unlikely. She still talks to me like the AFC orbiter I used to be. Once you spend a year building a house, it's hard to move out! She writes these super short emails. If I email once a day, she emails once a week. If I email once a week, she emails once a month. If I email once a month, she never replies. It's a strange game. Mostly I've written her short emails to see how strictly she sticks to this. It's shockingly consistent. Anyways, I live in London and I live in London.

Punk

I went out to Punk last night with Sasha and his housemate. Sasha is a furious opener. He opens everyone and suddenly jumps into super state. I warm up slowly. I never really got into state last night. The music was lame and the people were arty and boring. I opened 10ish sets and at the end of the night I felt like I'd had a bad night. It's amazing what I find disappointing after just a few months. We ran a 3set early in the night that promised to come dance with us later. They ignored us for 2 hours, until I was dancing on stage with a couple girls around me. Then they absolutely loved us and ran across the dance floor at us. Social proof is shockingly powerful. We got pics with them. One girl was stunning in the face but had a big body. Damn shame. Even in the pics she is really pretty. I chatted to a chavy girl again and almost escalated into regret-town. Oh well. Overall I think I need to go to venues where there will be girls with personalities. I was shocked at how boring everyone was there. I'm really not into 18yearold girls anyways. But if a girl is that young, she's gotta bring something to the table. I almost fell asleep talking to everyone. Also, since when does it take 2 girl djs to be unable to mix? Surely one girl could trainwreck on her own? Ahhhhhhhhhh

Short Sets

It's Tuesday. I'm drunk as hell. Tonight was so weird. I went to the battle of the bands final. Couldn't get in. Right as I wanted to go home, I run into 3 hotties that I've posted about before. This short smoking hot blond and her 2 friends. We bounce to another bar. I have a couple there and get wasted. I'm not gonna lie. Hehe. I saw a beautiful brunette at a table of 4 and my AA overwhelmed me DAMN Me!!! Sasha and Dr Yen have promised to cure my aa this weekend. Then we bounced to another bar. At some point tonight I saw Sparkle and my house mate. But not together. I think he actually never closed. He burned our friendship for nothing. He tried to talk to me and hug me late night but hell no man. Too late. I gotta protect my neck.

Ok so at the final bar. I ran like 20 sets. Just bouncing from one hot girl to the next. All social circle. I think I fucked up one with a really hot girl that is just too close to my social circle. But who cares about that. I opened one set of girls. Turns out I had chatted to one girl a month ago. I just super escalated and ended up finger blasting her while we were standing in a cirlce. It was so smooth. We kissed some. The other dude creeped her friend out and they had to bounce. I definately had the SNL in the bag. Oh well. It was so nice. I asked the girl for her number just to be polite, but we were on the same page. If I run into her again I will bang her. She kept saying that the guy after her friend took too long to escalate. Hot damn. Girls are smarter than men. I went in with a really strong Rokker frame.

Other stuff happened after she left. Nothing interesting. I was so drunk. So my game was off. I was just pushing escalation with all these girls in my social circle.... Probably because I'm moving out of this one horse town soon. I just can't be bothered with boring stuff you know? Anyways, it was nice to meet a cool girl who didn't make anything weird. I mean I really didn't want her number. It was so safe.

Is this an FR or an LR? I really dunno?

My Story So Far

Tomorrow marks my 6month anniversary in this lifestyle. On Christmas ever last year I realized I could never trust my 1itis and that I would die if I didn't change my life. I am so proud of how far I have come and I have a clear vision of how to move forward in my life. I have opened 700 sets, including 10 street sets (2 with sunlight!!!). I have slept with 3 great girls (and one great guy!..ahahah). I have expanded my friend group and met amazing people from all over the world dedicated to improving their lives. I have shared everything with my dad and almost everything with mom about game and my life. I have learned to break through mental barriers and change my life as a man. I have dropped a lot of weight and really started to exercise. I have started learning new dance moves again and practicing my martial arts.

I have so much more to go! I still need to open 1300 more sets before they start counting. I need to really focus on being comfortable in the daytime. I want to expand my friendships and move into central London. I need to change universities and take care of all that entails. I need to lose more weight and start really changing my diet. I need to cut soda out of my life 100percent. I need to develop a strong social network of friends I can trust and give value to, without any expectation of return. I want to meet more beautiful and amazing people. I need to crush my social anxieties. I need to expand my network and really find out my destination.

Something happened tonight. That reminded me of my motivation. I was sitting across from a beautiful girl on the subway for about 6 minutes. 6 months ago I would have looked at her and never considered opening her, just enjoyed her beauty. Today I thought about how to open a single girl across and a few seats down on the subway. By Christmas I want opening her to be like breathing. I want to be unchained. Able to talk to any person I want to, in any situation, of any gender. I seek and demand emotional and social freedom!

SunDayGame

I wrote this on my phone in a bar a few hours ago. I'm finally home now. Phew!!!

So i went out for day game today. First i spent the afternoon with zigzag filming soul. My arm wanted to die after a while. I was in the frame of spotting sets for soul instead of just approaching myself. I got some good stuff i think. Then soul went off for a date and we went to meet up with sasha and his friend. I managed to go direct on two stunning girls with a lot of pushing from zig. I was so scared and nervous so neither one transitioned. But at least i faced the tiger. Zig did two as well. Sasha has a much different style from soul. It just seems like so much more work. I work that hard at night trying to build attraction by being funny. I would rather just go direct. I just need to find a way to get into state. I am proud of opening two stunners even if i lost both sets. I just need more time in the field. Its like my approach meter is back at zero. We are in a bar now without sasha. We are so tired that we cant talk to anyone. No matter how

Cute. I have no complaints. I just want to go to bed. Now. There are some really cute girls here. But there is nothing i can do. I can barely look. At least i feel no emotion. I wish i could get surgery to remove my aa. Oh well. Its just weakness leaving my soul.

SASHAS VERSION!!!

Two Weeks Ago

I wrote this on my phone two weeks ago and forgot to upload it. From my mobile....

So i am sitting in my backyard. Listening to some tunes topless in the sun smoking a cigarette. Its so good. What a perfect moment. All my work stress is just out of my mind. I am in the moment. Months of inner game work are paying off.

Going Direct

I went out with Sheriff, Soul and Optimist tonight. They all brought some friends I didn't know as well, but none of them impressed me so I've forgotten their names. Yes I'm wicked drunk. So you better read this.

I had crippling aa early in the night. I got really nervous and Sheriff yelled at me. When it comes to coaching I really respond to cruelty. Maybe I am a masochist. He got me to open a fat girl and it was like butter. I just asked about the menu and transitioned. I ran some other mediocre sets walking around the club. I opened two sexy blonds by asking if I could leave my empty glass on their table. I was in set like 90 minutes I think. Optimist showed up at the perfect time and winged me. Both girls turned out to be giants. Like 6foot6 or some crap. I number and facebook closed my giant, but she has a boyfriend in Oxford. I ejected after pushing as hard as I could. I ran into them later and it was lame. GRrrrrrrrrr.

I ran some other sets that went nowhere but who wants to read about that? I am not here to bore you. Oh wait I totally am. Soul is trying to go to sleep now, so I will cut to the chase. I opened one girl direct on the street. I didn't think, I just had to do it. She was insanely beautiful. I got massive IOIs from her and her friend. She tried to disqualify herself by saying she has a 5year old. I told her that I have a 12year old daughter. The girl loved my accent. Her friend loved me. I got a couple of cute pics and a facebook close. The girl has no mobile.... I then left and went to Soul. He was like why did you leave? I had no excuse. I went back to find them and they were getting into a little rickshaw. I pushed to get an instadate, but it was too late. At least I pushed as hard as I could. I'll post pics as soon as I can. This girl was so hot I couldn't go direct on any more girls, it just wouldn't have felt honest. It was so nice.

Friday Night with Sasha

My field reports are always too long, as I try to document every set I enter. Today I'm just too weary. It was more than twenty last night. I felt like death on two legs when I dragged Sasha home at 3... But there were two sets I would like to remember.

The first was a warm approach. I had to get through this gay guy who got really mad when I asked if the girl was his girlfriend. Maybe he was joking but keeping a straight face, but I really didn't understand the dude. I was able to kino, micro-isolate and lock in against the bar. This black girl was well sexy and all party girl. The gay dude kept saying that they were leaving to go to an orgy. I'm not sure if that was supposed to impress me or creep me out, but I was simply unaffected. I have seen Short Bus. HA! Anyways, I think I was in there but I lost the close because I was simply overwhelmed by the strangeness of the situation. The girl was trading intense sexual glances with me, but really I just couldn't keep up. I joke about being a small town boy, but for once I did feel like it. Overall I have no complaints, except I didn't take a picture. Sorry!

The second girl was also black. We opened her as we were walking out of the tube station for a venue change. She was stunning. Tall, graceful, black and French. Sasha wasn't attracted to her at all, but boy I sure was. She looked like a model. We vibed for maybe 5-10 minutes while she was waiting for her friend. I never managed to pull the trigger. More because I didn't see the tipping point than because I didn't want to or felt escalation anxiety. I have never closed a girl on the street and I simply need to fix that. Hanging out with Sasha and Soul should repair my problem. But boy was she sexy.

I got some pics with club sets I ran later, but nothing special happened.

SASHAS VERSION

Big City Friends

So after my FR, Sasha convinces me to blow off my train and stay at his apt. Bastad! So of course I do it and we go looking for more girls. I'm in a super mellow state after my romantic close, but Sasha is totally in state and opens a ton of girls on the street. We bounce around a couple of bars and club, but nothing really sticks for me. I spend most of my time talking to Ziggy. The guy was in a really mellow state and got eye-banged by like a dozen girls. So I learned a lot about that from him. I have always missed that AI, but now I'm watching out for it! We eventually go back to Sasha's and the three of us talk all night and I catch a train at like 7.

These guys were just really sound and open. It's nice to meet guys that have really strong game and our normal(ish). We talked about game, our strengths and weakness and tons of normal stuff. I am going back to chill with these guys. But as I'm trying to move up to London, I have to build a new social circle. I don't want the world to keep thinking of me as Soul's bitch. Ha!

Anyways I had a good time with all the guys in their crew and it's just great to be around guys who are focused on bringing each other up and giving lots of value.
Safe.

Laughing at Sasha

I went up to London for the night last night to check out Sasha's comedy gig and then meet up with Dr. Yen for some danger danger. Unfortunately, I never got into the club to see Yen, but this story is about what happened before.....

I get super lost even tho I have two maps to find the pub. I walk in and I see Sasha talking to two girls. I hang back to try and peep the scenario for a second, as I don't want to blow his set. A moment presents itelf and I walk over to wing him. He's like let's go grab a sandwich. So he and I leave the bar to go to tescos or something and he tells me his target. Lucky for me the friend is a sexy brunette. So I have no complaints at all!

We go back into the set and just start vibing. Eventually, he ejects to talk to other people coming to see his show. I'm just beeing funny, vibing and escalating kino. I was really on fire. The main roleplay we are joking through is being rich, living in the Caribbean and her spending all my money. I joke about my mom making is matching monogramed towels. She asks about matching robes and I tell her she can't have one. She has to walk around naked. I also ping out my sexuality when she asks about what kinda car and I tell her a convertible so that she can show off her bikini top every day...then....Soul shows up and I invite him into the set. He stays for a minute and leaves. I keep working the girl I like and I set up a stronger sexual frame than I usually do. I just don't hide my attraction. It's going really smoothly, so I eject to go talk to my friends. I tell them they can gossip about the boy she's in love with and look at my rock hard ass as I walk away as well.

I go talk to Soul for a while and then we go upstairs to watch Sasha try to be funny. I sit down with Soul on my left and I conveniently leave two chairs open on my right. Some LSS guy walks up and says can I sit here? And I say sure that'll be great, really sarcastically. He sits down. I'm like crap! The girls sit together a few rows back and I think about murder. Then my hero Sasha orders everyone to move seats closer to the front. I stay and get a girl on each side of me. But HBJew says "I don't want to sit next to him, he's gonna touch me." Looking back I think she was joking, but it really shut down my kino. I was like damn! She pre-framed me so well. I try to get her number and hand her my phone. She closes it and hands it back. What a powerful frame test. I am thinking that I've lost the set, but I try to hide my emotions. Nothing much happens during the show as we are listening and get yelled at when we talk. Sasha I think called me out for flirting early on, but I ignored it. It was fine.

After the show I stay upstairs talking to guys and stuff. Everyone is kissing Sasha's ass, but at least nobody asks if I'm his student! Eventually, we go downstairs and I talk to some other dudes and meet ZigZag, who is sound as a pound. Sasha says he wants to keep pushing the set and we go inside to find the girls sitting at a table, basically waiting. His girl even says to Sasha that she was gonna go, but HBJew made her stay for one more drink. I sit down at the table across from her. We just start talking and Sasha is working his. There is some good kino. The girl reaches across the table to hold the top of Sasha's hand and HBJew puts her hand on mine. I put my other hand on top and start really sexually escalating. The tension was so thick. I felt like the whole room could feel our sexual tension. She is mirroring me hard and I am in the moment. I just lean in to kiss her and time freezes. At the last second she pulls back and the tension snaps. I look around and everyone at the table is looking at us. They could all feel the tension. I talked to Zigzag later and he agreed.

We keep talking and then I say have to catch my train and the girls say the same. On the walk to the station I have my arm around her and she's really touching me back. When we break contact she grabs me. I get her number and build comfort. Lot's of future projections. At the top of the tube Sasha pulls his girl to the side. So I do the same. The other 2 dudes hang back. It's really nice to be out with professionals. My girl has her back to Sasha and his. I pull her close and she let's me goodnight kiss both cheeks. I tell her that her friend is kissing Sasha and I just demand the kiss. It happens. It was actually really sexy and romantic. She was a good kisser. I definately want to see her again.

PS I didn't take any photos. It was a low energy set and I got big city distracted.

Still Got It

So last night as you can imagine I was in a bad frame. My buddy called to discuss his girl troubles and it was perfect timing. His gf is withdrawing a little, so he just needs to ramp up attraction and avoid neediness. Anyways, we decide to go out for a drink to loosen our minds.

As I'm walking through the train station, I'm listening to my headphones and in a really weak state. Still thinking about that girl and my lame house mate. I see a stunning brunette. She is walking up the stairs and I am walking down. Our eyes meet. For a moment there is thick sexual tension. Then she is gone. I hesitated. I masturbated. I feel like I am chained up by my emotions. There is no way I ever want that to happen to me again.

I meet my buddies at an empty bar and we chat a bit. Then I'm like we gotta stop talking about our girl stuff. It gives that stuff power. The smoking hot girl that works at the bar shows up and I break through and talk to her. I've chatted to her twice before so I have a small connection. I don't go to this joint very often though. The main problem is that this girl is surrounded by about 8 orbiters. I wasn't in-state enough to deal with them. I mean these guys were all hulking as well. I'm pretty big, but these guys were like gorillas. Anyways, I chatted to her for like 1 minute to warm up. Then we moved on to another bar.

It's funny, but almost all of my stories take place at the same bar. It's just the only cool one in town. My really good friend HBrats is back in town after 3 weeks and working the bar (she owns rats she doesn't look like one). She is super cute and way smarter than me. She always hated Sparkles and my house mate. She said she didn't trust them. She had asked me to visit her last night and a part of me was afraid of running in those two. But I can't let anyone control my behaviour or I'll die inside. So I meet up with Rats and update her on the drama. She is like I told you so dude! And she was right. I told her that I need her to screen every girl I bring into my life from now on. She agreed. This girl is sound as a pound.

So me and my 2 buddies are upstairs having a drink. Three stunning Spanish girls come upstairs. I decide I have to open them. They have 2 orbiters with them. It's amazing how body language is so international. There is a band playing way too loud and I can barely hear my friends. They were supposed to finish 10 minutes ago, so I'm waiting for them to end before I strike. I am just hesitant to open a 5set with bad English when it's really loud. When I can wait 3 minutes for it to be easier.

Then a 2set comes up and stands near us. I think about opening them with my standard opener. And no it's not an opinion opener. I have my own original observational one that's really been working. I would post it but dammit if every guy in London wouldn't start using it. So I open the two set and just start vibing. I have started shifting towards more direct escalaton in set lately. Just to see if it works. I mean I'm at around 700 sets or something now, so I'm not even half way. I'm just really trying to get good and see what works for me. I have pretty strong kino with both girls. One is Canadian and one is South African. I never really do well with Canadians.... I was pretty in there with this girl. She really thought I was cool, but I decided to close later. They went off to use the bathroom, but I knew they would be back....But that made me need to go as well. So about 1 minute later I ran after the toilet.

I come back and some big girl has opened my friends. Fine by me. I will talk to anyone. Plus there is a sexy brown girl in her group. So I start vibing with her and come around the table to offer some light kino. Just basic rapport building. I bring the brown girl into our group and start chatting to her. She is at a work thing with clients so I have minimal time. I get massive kino, but she won't cheek kiss me because of location. I probably should have isolated, but it felt unlikely as well. I expressed interest and sexuality and got her number. She also couldn't believe I could remember and pronounce her name after one try. I wanted to be like, hello I love brown girls. Oh and I learned another lesson. I need to remember it. I asked her where she's from and she said Surrey and then I was about to ask a followup question of where in Surrey when she says my parents are from Pakistan. I was like what? I wasn't gonna ask that. And she says most guys ask her where she's from and then where she's really from. I was like damn girl. You're English to me. I would never ask that, but now I know every other dude does. Anyways, I speed number closed and let her get back to work.

Then some blond girl has pulled my friend. Well she's trying. She direct opened him and came upstairs to our little area with him. He was trying to be good as he has a girlfrield, but this girl was so naughty. When he went to the bathroom I escalated on her hard. I know he wants to be faithful so it's ok. He wanted me to steal her. She was being really sexy but when he came back her attention flicked back to him. So I put her in front of him facing me and made out with her. It's really all dirty Soul's fault. Three days later and I'm pushing for another Devil's 3way. And I'll be honest. It coulda happened. But my friend won't cheat. He's a sound guy. Like a bastard, I said dude this doe. sn't count if I'm there!! Anyways, he was a good boy. So then 2 of her friends show up. One girl says her name is Indy. And I ask if she's an archeologist. She says omg how did you know? I love you you're my best friend. The other girl is like model stunning. So I chat for a bit but this girl hates Americans. She really was just a bad person. I was fully in-state and running jedi game. She just kept doing a fake American accent and being really rude all night. I mean for like 2 hours she was like that. It's a shame that beauty on the outside can mean filth on the inside. So she goes to the bathroom or something and I get the other 2 alone on the stairs. I'm like group hug!!! Which guess what I turned into a 3way kiss. It felt really nice. Eventually, the boys they know showed up. Oh and these girls were all barely 18. Anyways, these guys stank of jealous loser.

They were all orbiters and eventually they tried to get violent with us. Now a part of me has some aggression to release right now, so I thought about letting it happen. I mean it always surprises me when people want to fight me. I mean I am pretty big and I've been doing martial arts for more than a decade. But I decided to control the frame and I ignored them. They eventually left with the girls, after I gave my number to the blond. She can call if she wants.

During all of this the brown girl left. I think she might have seen what a bad boy I am. I texted her late night but no reply. I'll try again today. I'm so annoyed. I went out without my camera, on purpose!!! And of course I wanted it. I took some pics with my mobile. Don't know if they will look sexy.

Oh ya and the Canadian saw me walking through the bar with Indy and shouted her support. So I think that close got lost that way. But overall it was a good night.

Betrayel

So I made my peace with Sparkle last Wednesday. I started having feelings for her again. It's hard to control my emotional attraction switches you know?
Objectively, I know she is bad for me, especially considering how she behaved when it ended. I was in London all weekend, but I certainly thought about her plenty. I even talked to Soul about her a lot and how I still have feelings.
I get home this week and I see my house mate. I had told him last week that I was thinking of hooking up with her again.... So that night he went out and hooked up with her. He even brought her here, to our house, to try and close. They only made out, but he was like if you want me to stop I will. Trying to put the frame on my shoulders. I was really hurt emotionally, as you can imagine. I had confided with this dude a ton about my emotions and stresses and feelings about her. He wants to date her I guess and has been texting her a ton. He sat next to me when it fell apart and acted like my friend last month. So now it's supposedly my decision if he pursues it. You've got to be kidding. My friendship is obviously over with him. He simply can't be trusted. I immediately called my dad, then Soul and then I talked to Maximilian. I mean for a second I was like I have no friends. But then I got them. I am better now. I mean I'm still hurt, but it's better to find out now. I can't wait to move into London to party with Sasha, Yen and Soul constantly. I just need to live there. I thought that I could get to a point where my game would be so good, no one could or would do this kinda thing to me, but I don't think that exists. This planet is covered in girls, why lose a friendship for one?

FR - June London BC

I wish I could remember all of the sets I ran this weekend, but I do want to try and write a lil FR for posterity. I missed a really good close Saturday night bc of my Devil's 3way with Soul. So I will focus on this one.

We got to this massive club early and really dominated. We had a crew of 20-30 guys there all really in a great mood. I start running demos for students and trying to get them into the set and then running off to leave them to it. I was super in state because of craziness with Soul and a student on the tube. I was so much fun. I was just really talking to everyone. When I'm in a good mood on the train I just talk really loud and tell jokes and then open any girl by asking if she's listening in. It's so money for fun conversations. I got distracted and missed closing a really hot brunette. I blame Soul for not grabbing me and making me talk to her. But look I've already digressed!!

Anyways there was a smoking hot blond shot girl working in the club. Every guy tried to run game on her and I think they miscalibrated. I quickly got her talking about regular life and found out that it was her first night and that she was super nervous. I encouraged her and told her to come find me anytime she needed emotional support. I talked about how it was my first time in this big scary club too. It was true. She found me several times during the night and I also made a connection with another shot girl. It was really cool.

She found me for the 3rd or 4th time and one of my students bought a shot from her. I was thinking oh no! What a way to make her stay in work mode. He then even gave the shot to me. Fortunately, I was already in deep rapport with her. I really focused on checking to see how her night is, compliment the funny shot-girl suspenders she has to wear and just make her smile. My focus was value-giving. She accepted my frame and came to me for comfort and validation. I got a ton of sexy pics at this point and set up an instant date for when she got off work 30 minutes before the club closed. I didn't want to push sexual escalation while she is still working and can get in trouble. That's a legitimate barrier imho. She was really keen and kinoing back.

Unfortunately, I left the club with another girl by this point, but I will definately visit this club again.

As per usual, pics on the lounge

Meeting Heroes

So this weekend I have been hanging out with Soul at the London BC. I am doing a little approach coaching and I love it. When new guys just dive in and learn something, or have some success, it's really amazing. I feed off that energy. And I'll post more about that and my other FRs later on. What I want to talk about now is meeting guys that I have read about and created an image of in my mind.

I met Braddock, Savoy, a guy fromt the Streets and a ton of other pretty successful or well-known guys this weekend. As I have posted before I am a HUGE fan of Braddock's blog. I find his theory explanations really tight. Before I met him I thought he would be gingery with a beard. All of my expectations were wrong. Ha!
These guys are all so normal and down to earth.

I have discovered that as guys get better in game, they learn to avoid affirmation-seeking behavior. So instead of surrounding themselves with kissases, really good guys like to give out value. They throw around compliments and positive reinforcement from a place of simple honesty. I think sometimes we withold compliments for fear of giving the other person power, or even just making them feel higher than us. But really alpha guys don't have that fear. They can compliment, tease and joke from a very comfortable place. They will also say things that are totally honest.

When he first saw me Saturday night, Mr M was like wow you look amazing dude, but you need to lose more weight. I respect his honesty and I am working on that issue as you know. I have plateoud at 93kg, but I am going to breakthrough as I am newly motivated. Other guys have complimented specific areas of my game or just given me ideas to work on.

The irony in the community is that we expect the guys at the top to act the most like rockstars. We look up to them and their big names or reputations and expect them to need the same kind of groupie affirmation that normal rock stars need. But these guys aren't low self-esteem, so they don't act like that. I have to say that Braddock is one of the soundest guys I've met. I just talk to him like a normal dude and he talks to me the same way. A lot of guys see me out with Soul and can't believe that I'm friends with him, as I'm so new to the community. Some people miss that we are friends because we have so many non-community things in common.

So the next time you meet one of these dudes, don't talk up to them. Just talk to them like normal dudes. That is what they are famous for anyways.

LR - Roasting Soul

So last night I was helping out at a bootcamp. I ran a lot of interesting sets and even set up a date with a shot girl for when her shift ended. I think I had a solid close available with another shot girl as well, but I only got pictures with one. I also ran a pretty good set with a tanned Canadian, but it was tough with my student. He just couldn't get a groove on in this set. And eventually me, him and Soul got ejected. But that's the boring part.

Late night after I'm done instructing, I am just chatting Vercetti and I see this lovely brown girl. I tell him how much I love brown girls. He's like why the hell are you telling me? Go tell her! Open her now. Go direct. And I start just making up excuses. It turns out he is a lot stronger than me. He basically picked me up and threw me at the girl. I repeated the opener he gave me. My first direct approach. It was really strong. Instant attraction. We are being really sexy, but I just can't seem to get the kiss in. As we are rubbing each other, Soul walks up. He just gets involved. He starts talking to her, puts an ice cube in his mouth and passes it to her, which she then passes to me. It was really sexy and dirty.

We just are moving forward and change locations. We get close to the door, where the whole club can see us and just start making out and taking turns. The whole club saw us, including Mr M, 5.0 and a ton of students. One student tried to walk up and join our set. I was like dude you must be joking. We had so many logistical battles. Soul was the escalation and I was the comfort. I was a little annoyed that he kissed her first, but I got my revenge later. She was in the club with a girl and wouldn't leave with her, no matter how many SNL tactics Soul employed. It was insane. Her friend shows up with some guy and I stand to the side while they interview Soul. They decide to take him home with them. Then Soul goes to the bathroom and I start making out with the girl and her friends were like whoa! The guy was totally overwhelmed. He was cool enough in that he didnt say anything judgemental.

We get to the girls' apartment and all five of us are in the room. The three of us sit on the bed and then Soul asks for a tour of the rest of the apartment. The other girl splits off with her guy and we just start getting super naughty. There were a lot of logistical issues. Tons of LMR. She wouldn't even let either of us go down on her, just tons of finger blasting. So we finally close her by the front door. I go down on her and then I'm trying to slip it in, but a comment Soul made earlier about how it's hard to get hard at a spitroast came back to haunt me. Soul was covering her top end, making out with her and fondling her tits. He told me later he was doing everything he could to avoid her state breaking, and was just waiting for me to get one full penal stroke in before he whipped his Soulja out to blast her mouth. I just got the tip in when she changed her mind and threw us out. Next time we will succeed!

The Saga Continues

So tonight I was at my usual bar. My buddy from Hong Kong is visiting me. We are gonna score a place in London soon. We walk up the stairs and I see Sparkle and her friend sitting at the bar. I turn around and tell my friend and I think about running away, but then I realize that's not how I want to live. So we go up there and sit down. Right then a pic appears on the tv of me and Sparkle, the night I broke rapport. Her kissing me on the cheek. I can feel the tension. It's so strange. I have made peace with the friend, but I don't know what is up with these two girls. So much small town drama, but damn Sparkle looked good. She is so sexy and jewy. Just like me.

So there is so much fucking tension. And we are pretending to ignore each other. I start to have a panic attack. Like my old aa attacks a few months ago. So I feel my pulse and it's doubled, but not tripled. I start tapping a bit and I dunno if it helped or not. I see another guy in the scene with a buddy and they join us. Nobody can tell I'm super tense, until I say something to them. The girl walks by and the new guy checks her out and is like damn she's hot. Both my buddies eyes swing to me for a reaction. I'm like thanks dude, that's my x. He's like omg I'm so sorry. So I say why dude? It's a complement that you think I have been with a hot girl.

So she goes to the bathroom and I talk to her friend. I'm like why is there so much tension? And she is like ya that was great how you guys appeared on the tv right when you walked up the stairs. Ha! Anyways, she was like you guys should make friends. I said I have she rejected my offer. So she thinks Sparkle was just tense bc her new bf was there. I am able to not ask if they are still together. So I'm like I have no ill will. I've actually never spoken bad about Sparkle even tho it ended poorly. I'm trying to learn to be more alpha.

I go and sit with my friends and ponder. What is the best way to be? I want to be alpha and just give value. So I decide to offer friendship again with no expectation. So when Sparkle leaves again I go up for a drink and she returns and is sitting next to me pointedly ignoring me. I turn to her and say hi....how are you? She's like fine and kinda blushing. I say can we be friends now? And she says well, I don't know about that.... And gives me a cheeky smile. And breaks eye contact. I say well whenever you want to be friends I am ready. I have no bad feelings. I smile and I walk back to my friends. I have no expectation but I have given value in the best way I can.

I sit down and I can see her pull out her phone and I see her texting furiously. I'm like please let her be texting me! I know. Then I get a text and my phone takes ages to display and I'm like don't have an expectation. But it is her and she says " ok friends lol." I don't reply, but I don't need to.

I am still really attracted to her. I think it's good that she kept my phone number, that she texted me and responded to my value giving. It's really a powerful principle. I have a lot of thoughts about why she texted instead of saying it to me. But I decided not to talk to her anymore tonight, even though maybe I could have hooked up with her again. But I want to demonstrate my lack of neediness. Because there is an abundance of beautiful women on this planet.

There is a huge smile on my face. I saw a challenge. I had massive anxiety. I face my challenge. I gave value in the face of social terror. I overcame my challenge. I was rewarded. This is a powerful flow.

FR - Saturday Night Social Circle Shrink

I peel off from the birthday party to see my boy Sheik. He is really getting back into sarging around me. He is a little rusty because he has had a gf for so long. We head out to our usual haunt and it's just a little rough warming up. I mean I warm up there by opening tons of sets in line for drinks usually. It's just the easiest thing. My warm ups are nothing special and kinda hate me. We go downstairs and I force him to spin-open a set as he is dealing with an AA renaissance. I just stand there for about 5 minutes acting casual. I just didn't care and I'm kinda peeping the room to see if anyone is cute enough. I join his set and he introduces one girl as a pole dancer. I say that is crazy I'm a pole dancer too. But she really was one and took it super serious. I think Sheik said it as a joke. I am pretty sure he had no idea it was true. I just keep vibing about it and joking but she is totally not on the same page as me. We eject and go to another part of the bar to really get into our stride.

We go up for some drinks and there is a smoking hot, super tall, mega skinny brunette. Just really stunning. She coughs right near me and I turn to her and ask if she has bird flu. Within about 2 minutes me and Sheik are running her and her 3 friends. I end up micro-isolated with the 2nd cutest girl. It's a situation where I have to climb the social ladder and I am fine with that bc I'm rolling into state baby! But I totally forgot to get a pic with these girls. Grrrrrr. I with I was just always mic-ed up with a video camera. To see all of my sets and adventures. They are bouncing to a dance club but it's too soon for it to not be weird. I mean one girl was loving Sheik. I was really rocking my current mistake of talking too fast, so his girl thought I was gay. I mean some girls really think it, but a ton don't. I think if I fix my speaking speed my game will explode. Anyways, the girls leave after a few minutes but overall it was a strong interaction and it will be cool when we run into them again as we inevitably will. I am pleased with how it went and what I learned.

We then bounce around the club and just don't see any great sets. Sheik is still struggling with opening, so I teach him my opinion opener and send him in. It's funny because I totally guard it like a top secret, even though it's in the Routines Manual and I haven't used it in weeks. He goes over and tears into the girls and then I text some friends. I go over to check on him and offer to get him a drink to make him look cool. It's so dark, but as I'm walking away I think damn those girls seemed familiar. When I get back I realize that it's the same girls from Thursday. Who already hooked up with some of my friends. It turns out one went on a date with my insta-wing buddy. So he did well. We hang with them for a while, but they won't let us isolate. I try to go and get drinks with one of the girls and they freak out. They are like if we split into pairs, it's 2 boys and 2 girls. I just go ok later. And me and Sheik eject big time. Man I try to be unaffected. But lameness really annoys me.

We get to another bar and I run into Sparkle. I'm not sure if she saw me because she never threw me a sneer. I am like of course I keep running into people I know lately. This town is really small I guess. Anyways, we go upstairs and I get a cougar to buy me and Sheik a shot within about 4 minutes of vibing. He turns it down though. I know he doesn't drink but seriously.

I then spin and open a smoking blond behind me. She has a little gold braid around her head so I ask if she's Egyptian. Her friends think it is hilarious. I run really solid game on her. Good vibing and kino. I develop good rapport. Even Sheik thinks I'm doing great. And he never thinks I have attraction. It really pushes me to become amazing. So then my friend shows up, who always ruins my game. He always walks up and tells girls how good I am with women. For some reason it's such a powerful frame-breaker. I walk over to him and I'm like please don't say anything, don't fuck me up dude. And he goes dude you have no chance with her, she's a total tease. And I am like dude I just asked you not to do that. He buys me a shot to make up for it. When I go back into set, she drops the boyfriend bomb. It was 100percent because of my frame shift. She had a change to mention boyfriends earlier. But she never mentioned a current one. Anyways, she is smoking but I lose her.

Her friend can see my massive attraction and isn't as cute so she goes for me. Hard. I am in jedi mode. I get her to grab my ass within 1 minute and I'm grabbing her boobs within like 2. I can't remember exaclty how I did it. But if I think it's ok, she thinks it's ok. I even took a pic down her shirt after she took one down my pants, both with my camera of course. Then my insta-win shows up. Man what the hell? I really like the guy and we have a ton of friends in common, but I have seen him a lot in the last two days. And he totally knows this set I'm rocking and he is best friends with the original target's boyfriend. I am literally drowning. And guess who he has with him? The two girls that had just annoyed me at the other bar. It's 12 by now and I'm supposed to meet my other friends and it's Sheik's bedtime. So we rock out, but we have to struggle past those two girls and then I see Sparkle on the way out.

I can't decide if she didn't see me, doesn't recognize me with my new haircut, or if she's moved from sneering to ignoring me. In a way I'm simply curious about it all. I have no ill will towards her and I've actually never hated on her to any of my friends. Oh well.

I go back to my friends and they are winding their party down. Also HBirthdayParty is gone. Sigh. It would have been nice to see her again. Should I have stayed at the party? How can I ever know. I wish Soul was here to hug me. He sent me a text saying he was having a crazy night in London, I can't wait to hear about it.

FR - The Birthday Party

So I went to an afternoon birthday party today at the pub. I get there and it's just my mate and his gf. She is turning twenty five. I felt a little like a third wheel, but we're all friends and it was cool. We went across the street to watch come cricket and drink beers and just chilled out. It was really warm and nice. Then another girl joins us a few hours later. A nice foursome. I do a ton of banter and build up kino slowly. It's hard because social circle stuff is super risky for me right now. But the girl is really sexy and nice. We roll through attraction during the course of the day and I built up some nice rapport. I mean I have really been listening to the pickup podcast and working on their lessons on rapport. I actually got deep enough that she told a story about almost drowning and I returned with a story about me saving my friend from drowning. It was really deep. I mean we shared a lot of personal stuff that I won't detail here, but she was really cool. But I kinda just felt a lack of rhythm. I am at a phase where when I'm deep into the rapport phase I can't convert into a final seduction.

I mean I didn't number close and kino kinda went up and down. But I definitely feel like we have a good connection. There is a lot to think about. I am kind of realizing that I am getting really good, but my closing issues are challenging. I can really feel myself on the brink of greatness, but I don't know how long it will take me to cross over. It could be a month or it could be six. I am at around 650ish sets. Just a lot to do. But overall I enjoyed my day and meeting this girl and learning to really experience rapport. I am also still really working on Soul's sexual seeding.

FR - Night in London

So after my double debacle Thursday night, I decide I need a night in London. I get Sheik to come with me and I let Soul know. Turns out he was already going to the same club. Also turns out this is a massive LSS club, which I'll cover more later. Me and Sheik enter the train station from opposite sides and meet on the platform. As we are sitting down, a man runs up and starts yelling at him. Then flips open a badge and acts like a cop, but I sarge with a real cop so I know what that kind of badge should look like. This one was leather or wood. It wasn't even metal. He is a train station under cover ticket man or something and pulls Sheik off the train. Everyone is staring at me. So I ask if they are going to kill Sheik. Nobody laughs.

I meet Soul outside the Eros statue and we go out to be heroes. He tells me I look different and after about 5 minutes is like omg you cut your hair! I think because he's seen a ton of photos of the new pic he didn't' realize this was his first in person treat. We get into the club and every single guy is peacocking. I was like um is this whole club on a bootcamp? He tells me that this is the main LSS hangout in London. I'm surrounded by guys in the game. It's the opposite of Guildford, where I'm the only guy out usually. Soul is such a dick at introductions and each person we meet he totally shames. He introduces me to one guy and is like he is the LSS admin so you better behave! It was pretty funny. The guy asks me if I'm doing stuff with Soul and I tell him that while we have fooled around we aren't exclusive. Why do good game guys love gay jokes so much? He seemed like a nice guy tho. He was wearing a kind of farm shirt, so Soul told him it made me feel like I'm back home on my farm. It was pretty funny.

Oh. I have already skipped over 2 sets. When we first walk in. We get in line for drinks, aka water. I blink and Soul has turned away to open a girl. It's my first time out with him without students around. The guy is amazing. I blink again and he's in deep rapport. So I'm alone in line waiting for our drinks and hoping Sheik makes it to the club. This girl in front of me busts out her passport, so I ask her friend if I need a passport to get a drink. I thought it was hilarious. I'm glad one of us did. I get the drinks. Hand one off to Soul and tell him he's a legend then I go walking around. It's my first time in this club, so I am lost and a little big-city overwhelmed. I have lived all over the world, but always in smaller cities. So I am just trying to get my bearings and I have a little AA. But it's more being overwhelmed by the whole situation than aa for a particular girl. Which I still often deal with. Eventually I circle the 3 story club once and go back looking for Soul. He is in set with a 2set. The friend looks super bored. I'm super nervous and walk by, but them I'm like wtf? Soul is my friend, I don't need aa when a hero is around. So I walk up to him to see if he needs back up and he throws me at the friend. This is only my 2nd conversation of the night so I'm still warming up. And when I warm up, it is bad. I mean I am not into the girl. So I bounce around a lot of rapport questions. I never heard a word she said. I don't know what country she is from or what she does. I asked her about traveling around Europe. OMG! I forgot. Souls' little joke was still in my head so I started talking about growing up on a farm. She says she wants to visit America so I ask her if she will help my mom milk cows. and of course i mime it. for while. hilarity ensued. for me. the girl keeps talking about how they are going to another club soon. i don't know if i am supposed to be impressed or something. i mean after we left they were still there for ages.

We eventually extract and Soul thanks me for my efforts at pulling teeth and I thank him for planting the farmer thing in my head. Sheik finally gets there and meets up with us. We are surrounded by LSS guys so the 2 of us peel off while Soul runs a set downstairs. We go upstairs and bastard that he is,Sheik opens a set of Americans. Now I am terrible with American girls. He can't figure it out. But I am American, so the last thing I want is a boring girl from America. And girls here feel the same way. They came here to meet sexy British guys. I am stuck with a super hot blonde. And boy did she not think I was funny. I am bouncing through routines, warming up. Oh. I have been listening to pickup podcast like a madman, so I am really working on banter a lot. She tells me she is in the UK studying PR. So I say, omg!!! I love magnum pi. You are gonna be an amazing detective. But you have to grow a mustache and wear tiny shorts. ok? I will be Higgins, the secret billionaire who controls you. But you get to drive a Ferrari. Again I am in heaven. I know this was funny, because the three times I retold it to my friends they all laughed. But she didn't like it. I still climb the kino ladder and drop sexual seeds. I get away with kino murder, but she never smiles and keeps looking past me. I am just winging Sheik so it's fine. Her friends come over to save her and I just switch targets. Some redheaded big girl. By big I mean taller than me and not emaciated. I rock this girls world. She is a hick like me too. I run a ton of hilarious banter and kino and she almost kisses me. I'm kinda glad she didn't. I wasn't really attracted to her. She tells me she doesn't giver her number to guys until they buy her a couple of drinks and I laugh in her face. I said she was barking up the wrong tree and I offer to introduce her to this fat old man and she goes great! Of course I chickened out because he looked totally scary. Soul sends me a text looking for me and I reply. The girl gets mad that I'm texting and is like fine then I'm going dancing with my friends. I'm like that's fine. Sheik had isolated her friend by now so I was free. I mean really. American girls are so rude. She demanded I buy her a drink? All I "bought" Soul is a glass of water and I love the guy.

So he walks up right after she's gone. Perfect timing. We just start chatting and he fucks with me. He goes "use all the stuff I taught you on her!" and points right to a girl. She hears him and is looking right at us. I almost died. It was so funny. I still should have opened, but even I was surprised by this one. Then we are telling jokes by a table and some guy is listening in. He must have had bat ears. And tells us a joke back that I never hear. I think it was the difference between a dick and a fork or something like that. Within a few minutes there is a circle of boys around Soul. They all introduce themselves with their online handles. I almost died. So then I say my name is LondonSoul2 and none of them laughed. What the hell? They are loving him and goddammit they all think I'm his student. They keep asking what he's teaching me. And I was like dudes we're just friends. I swear. I have become Turtle from entourage. After a while of listening to Soul pitch his day game seminars to these guys, I'm like hey dude let's go dance. Hopefully you remember that he is a popper and I'm a liquid dancer so we're both trying to get better off each other. I wanted to bust out my new tutting. I was the obstacle to a gay pua orgy. Sorry Soul!!!

We go into a quieter room to chat and chill. Somehow I blink and we are in set with a blonde girl and a bunch of guys. Soul is so smooth I thought he actually knew the girl. He'd just opened her downstairs. He leaves me to it and I'm alone in set with a girl and 3 boys. One of whom is her cop boyfriend. But I was super jedi. I was climbing my kino ladder and I worked all of the guys. I was like dude my friend is a cop. Which is true. It was all fun and eventually all the guys just walked away and left me with her. I was jazzing pretty hard and at one point she goes wow you are really good at flirting. HA! It made me want to be her best friend. I really respect people like her. I wasn't all that attracted but I actually liked her. Then Sheik comes and extracts me. I thought to circle the club but we had to run to catch our train. sigh. I never got her number to be my London pivot.

Sheik is such a bastard, he makes me walk to the train station. My legs were on fire. My back is still acting up. I have chronic back stuff from my car accident years ago. We get to the train and it is bastard crowded. I start just gaming the girls on the train near us. We are sweating and jam packed into the end of the car. I was just bantering and yada yada. It was kinda funny. Then our train gets to station 1 stop from home. And stops. There is a train in distress like 3 stops ahead. But they won't take us the 1 more we need. The two chicks from the train offer to share a cab, but cheap Sheik is like hell no. BTW. I only got into state right as I got on the train. So I am opening everyone. I mean i was working those two for 25 minutes. To be honest they were kind of lame. So I didn't mind seeing them go.

We walk around the station and keep trying to steal people's seats. I talk to these two women in their late 40s for ages. They think I'm hilarious. Which I think I am too! I can't remember it all sorry. One girl totally freaked out tho. She was in line for the snack machine and I said "are you in line?" She looked at my like I had an ax. When I really just wanted to buy a snickers. Don't worry I didn't give any to Sheik. We see a girl I chatted to the other week and she runs away. I think she thought I would chase her and play that game. But of course I didn't.

They never let that train leave, but the next train to Guildford shows up and we get on that. There are two Scottish girls on the train. I couldn't understand a word they were saying, but I wanted to open them. I just chickened out. Until we got to the station. We are all getting off and one drunk bastard is lying on the bench near the door. I turn to the cute one and say "Don't forget your husband!" She laughs which made me fall in love with her. Then I start asking about her accent and tell her I can't understand her but she sounds like Lord of the Rings and I love it. She has a big bag and I ask if her ax is in there. She says her kilt is. But I thought she said kill. Well I pretended I did. It was funny. I think I coulda brought her come, but I didn't want to. I was just honing my vibing skills.

Shopping

FR - Small Town Hell

I need to move out of this small town. You will see why in a few paragraphs.

I am going to see my friends' band tonight. So I get two of my sexy Germans to come with me so I get in free. We meet at a pub for a quick one. One of my natural friends shows up with some super lame dude. The guy starts chatting super friendly to the girl I've been feeling up all night. I am like how the hell does everyone know every girl I meet? I cold approached them randomly Friday. So we find out the band is playing later than expected and my girls chip off. I'm cool because the whole bar was watching me and I already had a good chat with the bar girl. I join my friend and this other dude. He starts telling a story about how my girls are sluts and his friend banged one and that the one I was with used to be pretty but now she's fat.

I got totally stressed out. I wish I could be totally unaffected but I hate when guys talk about girls like that. I mean I don't care who a girl bangs, it's her business. But this guy was right there making fun of me and my life to two rough girls. I was really stressed out and I definately thought about hitting him in the face. I left rather than doing that. I mean what is the point of a one-sided fight. It's just strange that the smallest guys have the biggest mouths.

So by the time I get to the bar to see the band I'm in a sour mood. I chat to one of my buddies for a while to let out my steam. We agree that that dude is a wanker and I feel better. Inside the bar I start chatting to one of my pivots and open to smoking hot Persian girls. I really pushed and used everything Soul suggested. I flew up the DiCarlo ladder like a maniac with both of them. I was grabbing asses and pulling hair within 10 minutes tops. It was really gangster. I couldn't get any insta-wings going on though. And I just couldn't pick a target!

We bounce to another bar arm in arm. I felt like a ninja king. I already number closed one and I was in a strong position. It was going well and they were the cutest girls in the 2nd bar as well. I am doing massive kino and we get some drinks on. I try to bring my friend in to wing and then the girl freaks. It turns out she randomly hooked up with him earlier in the week. And now she's upset that he's been ducking her. I'm like of course. She keeps going on about it and is like I'm not in love with him. I bring in another buddy to wing and he's doing great. So of course my target is being super lame. I told her that if she didnt' stop talking about my mate I would leave. I don't wanna listen to some girl moan about a boy. I'm not her best friend. She won't stop so I eject and talk to my friend. He isn't into her at all. I talk to him for a while and find out that the girl I kissed last Friday, took him home a month ago. So we've already shared. Anyways, I got super annoyed and just left the bar as there were no cute girls around. I said goodnight to the girl, but I just hate living in a town where every girl I work my ass off to sarge has already fucked someone in my social circle.

I gotta move to London asap.

Pickup Podcast

Dude I just met these guys online, as they are friends with Sheriff and let me tell you, you need to listen to this badboy. These guys are hilarious, knowledgeable and easy-to-understand. They really cover every issue and make it clear. They interview all the gurus as well. It's really good to hear them all get interviewed by the same guys. It really levels the playing field. If you want to know what really happened in Project Hollywood, check out their bonus interview with Tynan aka Herbal. These guys are so hilarious. They are totally based on natural game, which is well different from my structured/routine approach but I definitely recommend them big time. There is so much information that has already improved my game and it's just great. They are coming out to London in August, so I'll give a fuller report then, but check out the podcast now. Don't wait, there is no point. I listen to it in the gym, the shower, or just walking around. It's money in the bank.

Also their philosophy of a man being a 10 perfectly dovetails with my theory. I have been talking to Soul and Stickler a lot lately about giving value. And I will go into more detail in a specific article. They believe that a 10 raises the value of everyone they talk to. It's how to be a legend. Rather than seem like a legend.

CHECK OUT PICKUP PODCAST

FR - Wednesday

Im stuck in a boring class so i will write todays report on my phone. Last night i went out to meet sheik. Before he got to the bar i ran into the two hot blonde germans from this weekend. They looked insanely hot. And im not into blondes, so imagine. They wanted to take me to another bar, but i didnt feel a close in the air and im not a dick so i stayed. Plus they are coming out with me tonight. They are massive social proof. So i was really nice to the guy behind the bar, just bc i heard about it on pickup podcast. I had no expectation. And later on he sorted out a drink. Nobody does that here in the uk. Then when i introduced him to some friends later, my friends where like why are you talking to him? They think being friendly is an american thing now. Sigh.

So then sheik got there and man there were no sets. Its was all guys out. Bad luck. Ha. So we change bars and couldnt get into the one i wanted the most without pivots. Dam! Oh well. The other bar was pretty empty but then i saw this blonde i worked in feb. She never replied to my text. A part of of was afraid to say anything, but i got over it and guessed her name. I was wrong but she totally recognized me. And she remembered exactly what my text had said! Four months ago. So i get pulled into her group with two other girls. Sheik is bored and heads home. The blonde takes me into the alley to smoke. I feel her up and she rubs my cock with some kisses but there are a ton of people about. So no full sex. Sigh. Anyways they bounce me to another bar and every guy there thinks i am a god. Im really not getting to far. I did a lot of soul's sexual seeding and she told me she would f me if she were single. If i were better i would have gotten through!

So i know its all on me. We dance all night but then a ton of their friends show up and she has more social pressure to behave. I open this hot two set, including the girl i made cry back in the day, but they move and i cant progress bc my neighbor/enemy is there. The guy was stalking his ex who i hooked up with months after they broke up and the guy is still creeping around my house months later. He is giving me dirty eyes all night. I totally never think about him. I never did. But he works in this bar and is staring all night. He even tries to work my blonde but she blows part him. If i were more of a ten i could defuse him but....anyways i feel up the blonde some more and steal a goodnight kiss and get her number again and go home. Long and a little boring but this is my diary. Might post pics on the lounge.

Gym Journey

So all my workouts got deleted from my phone. I can't seem to find one program that will let me enter my weighlifting routines and how much weightxreps i do each time. To graph out my progress. I have one that will jsut keep track calories in and out of me. And one that will let me put in a routine but not keep track of past lifts. How annoying is that? God I wish someone would write this simple program for me. I mean I love lifting, but I can never remember how much I lifted last time. And sometimes, I have a dip in weight. So I want to keep steady track of all of this. I don't want to have to do it all by hand. That would be too much, plus I sweat like a bastard when I work out. Anyways, I tore it up in the gym today. I feel like I'm getting stronger and going nuts at the farmer's market last Friday was the right move. Having a buttload of vegetables in the fridge really motivates me to eat them. Delicious! I feel my body changing, but I want to make sure it's not all psychosomatic you know?

PS I watched this weeks episode of Peep Show, while I was working on 5 other things. I couldn't resist. God damn it was funny.

Great Movie

I don't know if anyone besides me has seen this amazing movie, but I highly recommend it. It's called Spartan, starring Val Kilmer. He is a total master of framing/conversational control. He just always decides what he's wanting to talk about. There is an amazing line early one

Val - What do they have you teaching her Seargeant?
Girl - ...Knife fighting sir
Val - Don't you teach them knife fighting, teach them to kill, that way they meet some sob that studied knife fighting, they send his soul to hell. It's all in the mind...that's where the battle's won.

This really reminded me of the way Sheriff is always reframing everything I say. It's really powerful.

My Body

I know I haven't mentioned my workouts and diet in a while. I have been to the gym 4 times in the last 2 weeks, which is crap. But I have been massively sore after my workouts. And I got really sore from dancing all day Monday. I'm way too out of practice. Grrrrrr. Then my dancing last night was killer. My neck hurt all night and now my lower back is on fire. Anyways, my weight is fluctuating around 92kg right now. I just had to put a 3rd new hole in my belt tho. So that is pretty wicked. It's about more than just pure weight. I'm dense or something anyways. Nobody can ever guess my weight right. Maybe I have lead bones? Either way it is a good mark of progess. I still have some belly fat that I totally hate. I am obsessed with being able to pull my shirt up! It's my new dream. I just have to keep fighting.

FR - Earlier that night

I didn't meet up with the Polish girls until midnight. Before that I was running sets with Sheik Yabouti. This kid is a long term friend of Stickler's with really solid game. I dove into my first set waiting in line for drinks with him. It turns out he knew the obstacle.

I worked the set for a while and even got micro-isolations. I felt like I was going through the model too quickly. Like I only had minor attraction, not enough to really grind through. The target was leaving for the summer the next morning, so SNL was really the only option. I was in set for about 45 minutes I would say. I was really strong in my progression and was running comfort routines, which I have been messing up all week, when the girls went to sit down. Now the main thing is, I failed in 2 isolation attempts. First, I tried just leading her and saying I can't hear you let's stand over here. She literally pulled me back and said, no here is just fine. I just kept on plowing, rather than making it weird. Actually, I wanted to laugh. It's so funny how as soon as I take Rokker's advice I get the ultimate isolation refusal. Then later when her friends went to sit down, I was like let's chat for a minute. Trying to create passive isolation. Instead she tried to get me to come with them. I was like in a minute. I mean I'm not a horse to be led. Anyways, I think they just left bc me and Sheik couldn't find them again. Oh well. Learning experience. BTW the girl looked like Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

In the middle of that set, I left to walk around with Sheik and ran into a 2set from the night before. I had rejected one girl's attempt to facebook close me on account of Sherrif. He's so right. Facebook closes are bs. I hate facebook chat so much. Anyways, these 2 girls were all over me. I number closed on girl and said I would let them add me on facebook to see the pics I took. They were being super sexual early on, but it was totally a shit test. I maintained my frame. We'll see what happens. I think chilling with these 2 might have hurt my other set, but such is life. I wasn't actually trying to create a jealousy plotline.

I ran into a 2set on the way out with Sheik. His boss and a former co-worker. They totally thought I was gay, so I was like are your boobs fake? Let me feel. They both did. Is that scandalous? I have been hanging with Soul a lot lately, so I think that could be his influence?

FR - Polish Goodbyes

Last night was a goodbye party for one of the first girls I ever successfully number closed. I never actually had a day 2 with her as our wires just kept getting crossed. Bue she developed into a good social friend. Everytime I saw her out she would get excited and say hi and be really friendly. She's really pretty so it was great social proof. She is really nice so I actually also like talking to her. I met this girl in January and I have run into her about 5-10 times. Her roomate dated one of my friends for a while. Her roomate is stunning. Just hanging out with her I've had to get security's help in a club before. It's amazing how aggressive guys with atrocious game can be.

So last night they are going out dancing for a goodbye party. My friend is going back to Poland for 2months today. So I met up with them and a 3rd Polish girl. It was intense. I was out dancing with 3 extremely beautiful women. I took a moment to realize how much my life has changed recently. It was a really great night. Every guy was jealous and tried to break in, but they just couldn't. I really liked the new girl, HBAngel, but I didn't really game her because it was our friends goodbye party.

I could tell that it meant a lot to my friend that I came to her party. And it made me feel really cool inside. Just giving value made me feel good. We danced all night and my back is on fire right now. During the night the 2 girls I knew kept leaving HBAngel alone with me, while they went to the bathroom. I built some rapport, but I am still really developing my dancefloor game. She mirrored me a lot throughout the night. I number closed her caveman style near the end of the night. I just took out my phone and demanded her number, couldn't exactly ask when it's impossible to talk.

Outside I as able to run some banter and joke with all 3 girls. My two friends went home and I walked Angel home. She is just really cool. She expressed a lot of cool personality on the dancefloor and kept it up here. I had time to create a little bit of attraction and some callback humor. We only had about 7 minutes together where we could talk, but I built up a little rapport as well. I basically just set the stage for the next time we meet. When we got to her place, she cheek-kissed me and I didn't push the issue since we really hadn't developed anything yet. She is in my social circle so I keep that in mind. I texted her on my way home and she replied instantly, which for me is pretty good lately. I'm still really developing, but I had a killer time with some really cool chicks.