So the only really interesting thing that happened last night was setting up a Day2 with my shotgirl. I met her ages ago at the last MM bootcamp. The night of my devil’s threeway with Soul. This girl found me randomly in a club two weeks later and I detailed it a while ago. I really thought I would never see her again. But fate intervened. Of course she works when I’m in London and I don’t want to sit around all night waiting for her to finish work. It’s just too needy. So we keep texting back and forth every day trying to sort logistics. She texted me last night to meet her for a party friday night at 1am in Shoreditch. Translation “It’s on.” I’m pretty excited and she is extremely hot. I have put up pictures on the Lounge. Soul was very impressed. Anyways, my life is still a logistical nightmare as I am trapped in Guildford until the 10th. There is a lot I like about this town, but it is time to move on. I can’t wait to live in a better town, closer to my good friends. It’s so annoying that I can’t just have friends over. So I will have to try and close this chick at Sasha’s apartment. He owes me since I really helped him with his Japanese girl the other night. Plus we are good friends. I really just can’t wait to finish school next Thursday. I have a little more work to finish this week and as you can probably tell I have mostly been working on recoding this blog to make it look as nice as Soul’s new blog.
I think shot girls are really great. They are hired for their cuteness. They have a thick skin and really tight game, but once you break through their shields it can be really cool. I met this girl on her first night so I just ran really tight comfort and was like the one non-creepy guy she could come back to on her breaks.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Doctor Feelgood
So as per usual, I am stuck in Guildford during the week. I really miss my rockstar brothers. I have so much schoolwork to finish and I have to go back to the hospital Friday to get some test results. It’s really amazing how slow the NHS can operate in this country. I got tested for cancer in March and I haven’t heard back since then. The just sent me a postcard with a date to come in June. Then they sent a card cancelling that and moving my appointment to July. It’s hard to believe I’m finally going in. I mean I’m pretty sure that they wouldn’t wait if the results were bad so I’m not worried. I just want to get through it.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Changing Spaces
So I told all my buddies and now I’ll tell you guys. I got into my dream university on Monday. I’m moving into London to go there and I just can’t wait. It’s really close to my new apartment. Once I move in I will take some photos to put in my apartment blog. This school is killer. Now I have so many logistical issues to deal with. I am trying to finalize my taxes.
Once I get that sorted I can start applying for grants and loans. So I got into my school and now I just need to raise the money to go there. Cross one bridge and you face ten more. I really struggle with getting stressed out. I sometimes can’t wait until my days of struggles are over. But then I think about that and realize that maybe life would be too boring then. I’m really not sure, but I am willing to find out.
I also need to see if I can transfer credits from my previous masters work. This would really be great for me. I would like to be able to work and go to school at the same time. I will see how possible this is soon enough. I have a nice six week break between moving into London and starting classes. I have about a thousand things to sort out but I am very pleased.
Once I get that sorted I can start applying for grants and loans. So I got into my school and now I just need to raise the money to go there. Cross one bridge and you face ten more. I really struggle with getting stressed out. I sometimes can’t wait until my days of struggles are over. But then I think about that and realize that maybe life would be too boring then. I’m really not sure, but I am willing to find out.
I also need to see if I can transfer credits from my previous masters work. This would really be great for me. I would like to be able to work and go to school at the same time. I will see how possible this is soon enough. I have a nice six week break between moving into London and starting classes. I have about a thousand things to sort out but I am very pleased.
My blog has moved
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Sunday, July 20, 2008
Skeletor's Talk to Project Rockstar
I don't write a ton of reviews, but today was worth a mention.
I was interested in today's talk all week when I found out about it.
I come from a pure mm background and with all the negativity in most "natural" game threads I tend to ignore it.
So I went in with mixed feelings to be totally honest. Especially after an amazing 2hour talk by Harlequin.
Basically, Skeletor blew my mind. He covered so many issues that I'm glad everyone in the room took notes and at least 2 people were recording. He really broke down inner game in a clear way. He was able to compare each phase of his model and compare it to the lovesystems model. I can see exactly how they can work together in a very powerful way. Skeletor is a really nice and charismatic guy. He has a really strong identity and his whole approach to game is identity-based. He really believes in working from inner game towards outer game. It was a 5hour talk so I can't really go into all the details, but it was amazing. I can't wait to hear the second part. It was cool to see Mystel again and I enjoyed playing the target in an amog battle.
There were a couple of key issues that I thought were really great.
Honesty game was the best thing he talked about though. Basically, be the same at home and in the field. He is proud of his love of Star Trek and it was really interesting to see how proud he is of it. He doesn't attach value to what he likes. He simply likes it. He has a powerful frame and rather than dominating the room, he simply shared it with everybody. I talked to all of the other guys on the trains home and we all really enjoyed it. As I'm sure most of you know, Skeletor is definitely worth listening to. He changed my entire perspective on natural game.
I was interested in today's talk all week when I found out about it.
I come from a pure mm background and with all the negativity in most "natural" game threads I tend to ignore it.
So I went in with mixed feelings to be totally honest. Especially after an amazing 2hour talk by Harlequin.
Basically, Skeletor blew my mind. He covered so many issues that I'm glad everyone in the room took notes and at least 2 people were recording. He really broke down inner game in a clear way. He was able to compare each phase of his model and compare it to the lovesystems model. I can see exactly how they can work together in a very powerful way. Skeletor is a really nice and charismatic guy. He has a really strong identity and his whole approach to game is identity-based. He really believes in working from inner game towards outer game. It was a 5hour talk so I can't really go into all the details, but it was amazing. I can't wait to hear the second part. It was cool to see Mystel again and I enjoyed playing the target in an amog battle.
There were a couple of key issues that I thought were really great.
Honesty game was the best thing he talked about though. Basically, be the same at home and in the field. He is proud of his love of Star Trek and it was really interesting to see how proud he is of it. He doesn't attach value to what he likes. He simply likes it. He has a powerful frame and rather than dominating the room, he simply shared it with everybody. I talked to all of the other guys on the trains home and we all really enjoyed it. As I'm sure most of you know, Skeletor is definitely worth listening to. He changed my entire perspective on natural game.
Harlequin
So yesterday I meet up with Mr M to talk out our club project for the next two months. He is out with some guys and I just start chatting. It's really natural and casual. I don't realize who anybody is. I just feel like I'm out with a bunch of normal guys. Joking around and relaxing. I mention how I lived in Japan for the past two years and Harlequin starts asking all about it. He is really interested. I have met a lot of really big names in game and in the music industry in my life, but I was really impressed. He just stinks of value. He communicates in a clear and emotional way that is so hard for me to describe. He is just a really nice guy who is deeply interested in what everyone has to say on an emotional level. We had a really good talk about Japan and later I mentioned my current sticking point about comfort when he asked about Rockstar. He just put his hand on my shoulder and asked me to talk through exaclty what my issue is. Ryan joined in as well at this point. They really helped me to understand it on a deep level. It was so profound I feel like it will take me ages to understand. But already I am really trying to constantly apply it to my communication. We talked about other things as well, but I learned a lot from Harlequin's subcommunications. I asked him why he is a life coach and he just started talking about how much he loves helping people and teaching people.
What separates Harlequin -
- If he asks a question, he wants to know the answer
- He always kinos when expressing an emotional point
- It feels like he is always interested and wants to help
- He is always either joking or speaking emotionally
- He remembers every conversational thread
- If he gets a phone call, he brings back the conversation right afterwards
- He is extremely honest
Just hanging out with this guy for two hours blew my mind. I was so impressed that Soul and I changed our plans last night just to be around Mr M, Ryan and him. It was totally worth it.
We ended up at a club that I just wasn't feeling. But at some point Harlequin decides he wants to coach me. He just took me under his wing. He explained so many things that it is going to take ages to absorb it. It was just two hours being near someone who really understands social dynamics. I think he talked to every single person in the club. He really isn't outcome dependent and it was really cool to see someone at the destination of all this stuff I am studying. I ran some sets with him and learned a lot, but I was so nervous. I rarely get nervous around names, but I was last night. I just plowed through but my game felt really jerky around him. I can't wait to apply all that I learned. I am going to a 2hour talk by him now, so I will probably write more later.
What separates Harlequin -
- If he asks a question, he wants to know the answer
- He always kinos when expressing an emotional point
- It feels like he is always interested and wants to help
- He is always either joking or speaking emotionally
- He remembers every conversational thread
- If he gets a phone call, he brings back the conversation right afterwards
- He is extremely honest
Just hanging out with this guy for two hours blew my mind. I was so impressed that Soul and I changed our plans last night just to be around Mr M, Ryan and him. It was totally worth it.
We ended up at a club that I just wasn't feeling. But at some point Harlequin decides he wants to coach me. He just took me under his wing. He explained so many things that it is going to take ages to absorb it. It was just two hours being near someone who really understands social dynamics. I think he talked to every single person in the club. He really isn't outcome dependent and it was really cool to see someone at the destination of all this stuff I am studying. I ran some sets with him and learned a lot, but I was so nervous. I rarely get nervous around names, but I was last night. I just plowed through but my game felt really jerky around him. I can't wait to apply all that I learned. I am going to a 2hour talk by him now, so I will probably write more later.
The Topman
So it's Sunday morning and my vision is kind of blurry. I think I got wine into my retinas somehow. But before I talk about last night I need to talk about yesterday. Soul and I get on the train to meet Sasha and the rockstars. On the train there is a cute Chinese girl. And you know Soul loves Chinese food. He is hesitating as he is still working through his tube limiting belief. I open the girl by asking about her giant violin case. Unfortunately, there was only a violin inside. He joins the conversation and then I just shut up. He chats to the girl for a bit and gets her number. We jump trains and there is a smoking hot girl. I sit next to her and wait for Soul to open her for me. Needless to say, he doesn't. I open the girl by asking about her map. She is portugese. REally nice girl. I number close her and invite her to a party. She texted me back all excited last night about going, but then it fell through as we went partying in south London instead.
My other great set was an insanely beautiful Russian girl standing in front of Topshop. I was checking her out for 5 minutes, totally afraid to approach. I tell Sasha, he grabs me and introduces me. He tells her that I am very shy. She says she doesn't speak English. She speaks Russian tho. Sasha translates. I am so nervous because of this approach. I plow through. She speaks English so Sasha walks off. She was actually really nice and a total technophyle. I got her number as well. She texted me three times yesterday. I also missed the Day2 with her. I love daygame. I am finally getting warm numbers. All three of my numbers from Friday night were ice cold. I am going to use them to story my vodka for the summer.
Yesterday was a really cool day.
My other great set was an insanely beautiful Russian girl standing in front of Topshop. I was checking her out for 5 minutes, totally afraid to approach. I tell Sasha, he grabs me and introduces me. He tells her that I am very shy. She says she doesn't speak English. She speaks Russian tho. Sasha translates. I am so nervous because of this approach. I plow through. She speaks English so Sasha walks off. She was actually really nice and a total technophyle. I got her number as well. She texted me three times yesterday. I also missed the Day2 with her. I love daygame. I am finally getting warm numbers. All three of my numbers from Friday night were ice cold. I am going to use them to story my vodka for the summer.
Yesterday was a really cool day.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Apartment
So yesterday I finally sorted an aparment in London. I move in in 3 weeks. I had a long talk with my buddy and we found a perfect place. We both want a place where our friends are constantly crashing. I hate living in such a cold house with strangers right now. I just want to be surrounded by my buddies. I can't wait for Ziggy to just stay over for 4 days watching movies. Of for Sasha to make himself at home on the couch after he moves out of his apartment. We are both on the same page with this which is really great. It's so good to move in with a friend finally. I haven't lived with a friend in like 7 years. How crazy is that? Always strangers or alone. The place is really nice sized. We are gonna get a wii to just make people love it. I want to always just have a really cool warmth there. Also it's in a great location for all of us. You can walk into the center of London in about 20 minutes (longer if I walk).
Oh I have to mention. After we looked at this flat my buddy was like let's look at one more that's 10 quid less a week. It was in the super ghetto. Council house in Elephant and Castle. We almost got stabbed at noon. I was like dude you must be joking this is going in the blog. It was hell on earth. Maybe he did that to make me love the first apt. Either way I'm really excited to start this next year of my life.
Oh I have to mention. After we looked at this flat my buddy was like let's look at one more that's 10 quid less a week. It was in the super ghetto. Council house in Elephant and Castle. We almost got stabbed at noon. I was like dude you must be joking this is going in the blog. It was hell on earth. Maybe he did that to make me love the first apt. Either way I'm really excited to start this next year of my life.
My material
So some of the guys around me are starting to use openers that I wrote or thought of. Last night Sasha was running around using a shocking chloroform one that I told him last week. Now everybody thinks it's his, even though if they ask he will totally say I wrote it. It's flattering that my material is getting out there, but I would like if my name goes out there with it. I think a couple of my routines are going to be in the Routines Manual II, which is pretty cool. I know I have 1 opener in there and hopefully 1 attraction routine. It will just be cool to spread my name a little more and to get more people reading this blog. Cheers!!
Rockster Friday
So tonight was my first night out with London_hunk. What a crazy night. I would love to write one of my ten page epics. But it's 330 and I am wicked drunk and exhausted. Here are my highlights. THREE number closes. My first black girl, my first american and my first girl dj. I might right down an extensive break down of my sets later or whatever so people can learn from me, but who are we kidding. Oh ya. I think people are starting to recognize me because some dude came over and body blocked me while his wing tried to steal a girl off me. It is so low class. I called over Prize to wing me and a big part of me was hoping for a fight. I hate people who act really low class. There are so many girls out there. All that idiot did was get himself blown out. I was bored of that girl by then anyways. I mean I was in 20ish sets tonight. I met Mystel. The guy is like Curious George. Like a little horny monkey that just runs tons of sets. Really funny. Normally LSS guys creep me out but I liked him. He was running one street set in Lester Square. He walks up in front of two big black dudes and goes direct on this girl. Her friend was really cold and lame and he just plowed. After a minute the dudes were like come on man that's pretty rude we're trying to have a conversation here. So we left them to it. That was the most mature I've ever seen dudes react and I really respect it. Instead of getting childish or bitchy the guys were sincere and they didn't act all alpha or whatknot. I have a great deal of respect for sincerity, prolly why I like Ziggy so much.
I ran some street sets and a ton of club sets. I hung out with Soul's friend again. I can't remember his code name so I'll say BodyPop for now. Man that dude is a legend. We ran a ton of dancefloor game. It's all a swirl in my head, but he's a really sound dude.
The one thing that shocked me was that by 1130 I was the only rockstar still in the club. I know Keychain has a train to catch, but what is going on? Friday night is a great night to game. I kept having to make new wing friends all night. That bastard Sasha went home with an amazing girl. How dare he! So I'm finally home alone and wait til I post the pics. The black girl I met was stunning. I love London. I just love how races mix. It always reminds me of that cafe scene in Star Wars, but in such a great way. Like all these amazing different kinds of people just mix and it's so wonderful. Brown guys love white girls, white guys love brown girls. If this isn't heaven, for me it is very close.
I don't miss my hometown on nights like tonight. White people live on one side of the river there and black people live on the other. Tonight I just met beautiful girls. for reals, the pic I took of this girl is insane. Super hot.
I ran some street sets and a ton of club sets. I hung out with Soul's friend again. I can't remember his code name so I'll say BodyPop for now. Man that dude is a legend. We ran a ton of dancefloor game. It's all a swirl in my head, but he's a really sound dude.
The one thing that shocked me was that by 1130 I was the only rockstar still in the club. I know Keychain has a train to catch, but what is going on? Friday night is a great night to game. I kept having to make new wing friends all night. That bastard Sasha went home with an amazing girl. How dare he! So I'm finally home alone and wait til I post the pics. The black girl I met was stunning. I love London. I just love how races mix. It always reminds me of that cafe scene in Star Wars, but in such a great way. Like all these amazing different kinds of people just mix and it's so wonderful. Brown guys love white girls, white guys love brown girls. If this isn't heaven, for me it is very close.
I don't miss my hometown on nights like tonight. White people live on one side of the river there and black people live on the other. Tonight I just met beautiful girls. for reals, the pic I took of this girl is insane. Super hot.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Salsa Time
It's 630 in the morning and Soul's ldgf just called. I was like it must be last than I think, but no it's early as hell. He is whispering sweet nothings and I am so bastard tired. He is going on and on about how much he loves Seb Drake. I swear he's trying to make me jealous. So I'll talk about last night I guess.
I went out with the Rockstars, Soul and Vercetti. We went to a salsa class. I was able to rock some dancefloor comedy to build attraction, but then I was trapped in attraction for almost 2 hours. I swear I'm too funny. I gotta turn it down big time if I wanna improve my game. (omg he's talking dirty to her now). So I make a girl laugh and eventually I'm dancing with her cute friend, my target. We are partners for the last half of the lesson and even practice together after. Keychain is working the friend for me. We go to get drinks together. At some point Keychain turns into Prizefighter. I finally shift to comfort with my girl, but man I still suck at comfort. I found out some stuff about her. I felt really jerky with my kino tbh bc I've never done salsa before. But I really love it. I'm gonna start going every week. I really want to develop this skill. I hate there being a dance I have not mastered. Anyways, she wants to smoke so I take her and her friend holds the drinks and chills with Prize. I build comfort. She tries to facebook close me and I number close her. I think at some point I should have kclosed her outside, but I never felt a moment for it. So I dunno............
We go back inside and I run out of things to say. I know I know...it sounds preposterous. So I just stand there near her not talking. I just decide it's not awkward. So she finishes her wine and we practice dancing some more before she leaves. She kino escalates me and moves my hand from her hip to up her back on her bra strap. Just pressing our bodies really close. Salsa is so gangsta and sexy. V was a genius for taking us. (ok so he just said....that's awesome I love that....that's perfect...........in his sexy boy voice. It's way to early for me to be subjected to this. I should have stayed at Sasha's. I would still be asleep) So eventually she leaves and I double cheek kiss her and Prize closes her friend on their way out the door. Normally I think that's such a weak close, but the girl was texting him 20 minutes later. Needless to say I texted my girl and got no reply.
Everyone has gone home now. So Prize and I are ready to bounce. I go to grab my jumped and it's underneath a giant salsa band. I swear this kinda thing happens to me so much. We have to wait 30 mins for them to take a break. I am sure that this is all over his blog, but eventually we leave and do some street sets in Lester Square. I know, but I spell it how I want to, ok? Anyways, I go direct on a girl and she doesn't even slow down. Prize goes indirect on a pair of American girls. (it is hard to focus when he is talking in his seduction voice....) On the tube there is a girl who is smoking hot. I only have one stop. I am working two blondes as well and I lose the brunette. I realize that I should have just gotten off the train with the girl I liked and gone direct. I have a limiting belief that I can only get off a train at my real stop. I have no idea why. I need to think outside the box.
Anyways that was my Thursday night. I'm so tired now, but I can't sleep while Soul is talking dirty 2 feet away from me. I know most people out there would kill to listen to an LS instructor talking dirty on the phone and stuff. Free demo! But dudes you are crazy. Salsa broke my body. But seriously he is a great mate, that's why I'm letting him talk on the phone and just complaining here. It's even funnier now but I can't write what he's saying. It's too shocking. Needless to say, I wish I was on Sasha's dirty couch right now, hoping that he doesn't touch me in my sleep. Dear God. He just said the most adorable thing ever. It's really cute. I swear he must be talking to a guy to be talking like this. I got Sheik Yabouti to break up with his girl. Stickler is next. Ok. I am gonna go tackle Soul now.....I think it's the best way to put down the rumours that we are more than just friends.................yaRrrrrrhh
I went out with the Rockstars, Soul and Vercetti. We went to a salsa class. I was able to rock some dancefloor comedy to build attraction, but then I was trapped in attraction for almost 2 hours. I swear I'm too funny. I gotta turn it down big time if I wanna improve my game. (omg he's talking dirty to her now). So I make a girl laugh and eventually I'm dancing with her cute friend, my target. We are partners for the last half of the lesson and even practice together after. Keychain is working the friend for me. We go to get drinks together. At some point Keychain turns into Prizefighter. I finally shift to comfort with my girl, but man I still suck at comfort. I found out some stuff about her. I felt really jerky with my kino tbh bc I've never done salsa before. But I really love it. I'm gonna start going every week. I really want to develop this skill. I hate there being a dance I have not mastered. Anyways, she wants to smoke so I take her and her friend holds the drinks and chills with Prize. I build comfort. She tries to facebook close me and I number close her. I think at some point I should have kclosed her outside, but I never felt a moment for it. So I dunno............
We go back inside and I run out of things to say. I know I know...it sounds preposterous. So I just stand there near her not talking. I just decide it's not awkward. So she finishes her wine and we practice dancing some more before she leaves. She kino escalates me and moves my hand from her hip to up her back on her bra strap. Just pressing our bodies really close. Salsa is so gangsta and sexy. V was a genius for taking us. (ok so he just said....that's awesome I love that....that's perfect...........in his sexy boy voice. It's way to early for me to be subjected to this. I should have stayed at Sasha's. I would still be asleep) So eventually she leaves and I double cheek kiss her and Prize closes her friend on their way out the door. Normally I think that's such a weak close, but the girl was texting him 20 minutes later. Needless to say I texted my girl and got no reply.
Everyone has gone home now. So Prize and I are ready to bounce. I go to grab my jumped and it's underneath a giant salsa band. I swear this kinda thing happens to me so much. We have to wait 30 mins for them to take a break. I am sure that this is all over his blog, but eventually we leave and do some street sets in Lester Square. I know, but I spell it how I want to, ok? Anyways, I go direct on a girl and she doesn't even slow down. Prize goes indirect on a pair of American girls. (it is hard to focus when he is talking in his seduction voice....) On the tube there is a girl who is smoking hot. I only have one stop. I am working two blondes as well and I lose the brunette. I realize that I should have just gotten off the train with the girl I liked and gone direct. I have a limiting belief that I can only get off a train at my real stop. I have no idea why. I need to think outside the box.
Anyways that was my Thursday night. I'm so tired now, but I can't sleep while Soul is talking dirty 2 feet away from me. I know most people out there would kill to listen to an LS instructor talking dirty on the phone and stuff. Free demo! But dudes you are crazy. Salsa broke my body. But seriously he is a great mate, that's why I'm letting him talk on the phone and just complaining here. It's even funnier now but I can't write what he's saying. It's too shocking. Needless to say, I wish I was on Sasha's dirty couch right now, hoping that he doesn't touch me in my sleep. Dear God. He just said the most adorable thing ever. It's really cute. I swear he must be talking to a guy to be talking like this. I got Sheik Yabouti to break up with his girl. Stickler is next. Ok. I am gonna go tackle Soul now.....I think it's the best way to put down the rumours that we are more than just friends.................yaRrrrrrhh
Monday, July 14, 2008
The Irony of Pickup
I have been thinking about something a lot lately. Guys never seem to transition from pickup to healthy relationships around me. Stickler is the only guy I know with a normal bf/gf relationship. He's been in one for about a year now. Otherwise, all the guys I know get into weird long distance things are mltrs etc. And these are great in the short term, but I don't want to be 50 and still doing cold approaches in club, or more likely church mixers and libraries. I got into pickup so that I could find a high value girl to complete me. I am in the middle of the honeymoon phase with pickup, but I still keep my desire to meet a girl worth it all.
I have realized lately that the girls who blow out every pua in town are actually the girls we most want to meet. I now have very little faith in the tenability of relationships. Modern women cheat as much as men do. I am one of the few men I know who doesn't cheat. A lot of my friends forget that my core is my religion and that I have some core beliefs. It's a big part of why I don't lie in set or try to be mean or neg. I don't want to put negative energy into the universe. I mean that's a modern way of saying treat people around you the way you want to be treated.
As puas we start to think that every girl can be conquered, married or single. But really that is a misperception. I think that there is a strict community of women that are pua-proof. We never hear about them bc the interactions with them only last a moment.
Stickler once told me that he almost wishes he didn't know about pickup. Then he wouldn't have to be so worried about his long distance girlfriend. All it takes is one guy with supertight game and a fistful of boyfriend-destroyers. Obviously, his relationship is stronger than that. I hope. But reality is tough. I have done things with a lot of girls who are dating guys in my social circle. And I had no idea. I was just on a cold approach.
So the dream of every pua is to pickup a girl who is pua-proof. Of course, that is exaclty the kind of girl that we can't meet.
I still believe in true love, marriage, kids etc. I believe there is a perfect girl out there for me. Someone who is able to resist the temptation to cheat and to match the side of my soul perfectly. It's rare to find puas who wax romantic, but we are out there. One day I will find that girl and retire from cold approach and move onto the next phase of my life. One day.
I have realized lately that the girls who blow out every pua in town are actually the girls we most want to meet. I now have very little faith in the tenability of relationships. Modern women cheat as much as men do. I am one of the few men I know who doesn't cheat. A lot of my friends forget that my core is my religion and that I have some core beliefs. It's a big part of why I don't lie in set or try to be mean or neg. I don't want to put negative energy into the universe. I mean that's a modern way of saying treat people around you the way you want to be treated.
As puas we start to think that every girl can be conquered, married or single. But really that is a misperception. I think that there is a strict community of women that are pua-proof. We never hear about them bc the interactions with them only last a moment.
Stickler once told me that he almost wishes he didn't know about pickup. Then he wouldn't have to be so worried about his long distance girlfriend. All it takes is one guy with supertight game and a fistful of boyfriend-destroyers. Obviously, his relationship is stronger than that. I hope. But reality is tough. I have done things with a lot of girls who are dating guys in my social circle. And I had no idea. I was just on a cold approach.
So the dream of every pua is to pickup a girl who is pua-proof. Of course, that is exaclty the kind of girl that we can't meet.
I still believe in true love, marriage, kids etc. I believe there is a perfect girl out there for me. Someone who is able to resist the temptation to cheat and to match the side of my soul perfectly. It's rare to find puas who wax romantic, but we are out there. One day I will find that girl and retire from cold approach and move onto the next phase of my life. One day.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
SundayGame with Soul
Today was a good day. I really don't measure my days by closes, but by incremental successes. I am cripplingly afraid to approach during the day time. I have really struggled with this all week and my weak daygame is really the main reason I accepted Mr M's 11th hour offer to join the Rockstar team.
Yesterday, I opened one girl poorly and I felt like it was a success. So today my goal was 2. Simple. I was teamed up with Prizefighter and Soul. P has never done a daytime set ever. We start walking off and Soul immediately runs after a girl and disappears with her for 10 minutes. So I open a girl standing near us. I ask her if she's texting me. I saw her again a few minutes later and she waved. And I walked away. How shameful of me!
Then it was time for P to step up to the plate. He ran up to a girl and asked her the time. As she was getting her phone out her told her she was hot and the conversation fizzled, but for a first approach that was great in my opinion. It is interesting to watch someone else with a similar aa issue to me. He deals with it in a different way, mostly by going indirectly and converting. The guy was a machine. He only opens really beautiful girls. I like his style. I chased one 2set, chickened out in shame and looked up to see P opening them. Legend. All 3 of us were really working well together and established some nice rapport.
P pushed me to approach a really beautiful brunette. It went amazing. Really strong connection and attraction. I lost it in the transition and froze up, but it's only a matter of time until it all clicks. Some guys know just how to push in the way that works on me. I can tell that when he starts trying out direct daytime openers, he is gonna smash central London. I was working super hard today, because I don't want to be the worst guy at the end of this journey. Seeing how good P is gonna get really motivated me.
We only had about 90 minutes today, which is nothing at all really. Then we had to head up to Mr M's place for some talks by Dr. Yen and Mr M himself. On the tube, I ran my tightest set of the day. I see a cute girl on the crowded train near me. I open her with my old opener. It's really crowded on here! She takes off one headphone. I then ask about her giant box. It says MAC on it and for some reason I know that means makeup. So when she says that I ask if she is a professional clown. No, she is a makeup artist. I take off my sunglasses and ask if she could sort my face out. She throws a massive IOI and tells me that it's fine already. I can see the attraction in her face. So I move forward into rapport and qualification. It's going really well and I am working out logistics. She lives in Soul's neighborhood. I miscounted stops and thought it was 1more until Mr M's. Suddenly, Soul is like Paladin this is our stop we need to get off here. Right as I am about to number close. I can see in her eyes that she wants me to. But Soul says it again and pulls me out of set.
On the platform I thank him. He's right. Why would I want a girl who only does makeup for models in central London as part of my life? There wouldn't be any social benefits for him. He responds with Oh? You liked her? It's amazing sometimes. My friends get distracted and forget that I don't open girls I'm not attracted to. I just find it emotionally dishonest. Anyways, London is full of beautiful women and I am proud of my success.
After the train, we see a smoking hot blonde just sitting in the passenger seat of a parker car. Soul is like wow I wish I could open a girl in a car. I was like dude you can do it. He was like no way. So I'm like let's walk up together and open her. It will be fine. We start walking and I just stop and let him open alone. Hehehehe. So now he no longer has a limiting belief about cars.
Yesterday, I opened one girl poorly and I felt like it was a success. So today my goal was 2. Simple. I was teamed up with Prizefighter and Soul. P has never done a daytime set ever. We start walking off and Soul immediately runs after a girl and disappears with her for 10 minutes. So I open a girl standing near us. I ask her if she's texting me. I saw her again a few minutes later and she waved. And I walked away. How shameful of me!
Then it was time for P to step up to the plate. He ran up to a girl and asked her the time. As she was getting her phone out her told her she was hot and the conversation fizzled, but for a first approach that was great in my opinion. It is interesting to watch someone else with a similar aa issue to me. He deals with it in a different way, mostly by going indirectly and converting. The guy was a machine. He only opens really beautiful girls. I like his style. I chased one 2set, chickened out in shame and looked up to see P opening them. Legend. All 3 of us were really working well together and established some nice rapport.
P pushed me to approach a really beautiful brunette. It went amazing. Really strong connection and attraction. I lost it in the transition and froze up, but it's only a matter of time until it all clicks. Some guys know just how to push in the way that works on me. I can tell that when he starts trying out direct daytime openers, he is gonna smash central London. I was working super hard today, because I don't want to be the worst guy at the end of this journey. Seeing how good P is gonna get really motivated me.
We only had about 90 minutes today, which is nothing at all really. Then we had to head up to Mr M's place for some talks by Dr. Yen and Mr M himself. On the tube, I ran my tightest set of the day. I see a cute girl on the crowded train near me. I open her with my old opener. It's really crowded on here! She takes off one headphone. I then ask about her giant box. It says MAC on it and for some reason I know that means makeup. So when she says that I ask if she is a professional clown. No, she is a makeup artist. I take off my sunglasses and ask if she could sort my face out. She throws a massive IOI and tells me that it's fine already. I can see the attraction in her face. So I move forward into rapport and qualification. It's going really well and I am working out logistics. She lives in Soul's neighborhood. I miscounted stops and thought it was 1more until Mr M's. Suddenly, Soul is like Paladin this is our stop we need to get off here. Right as I am about to number close. I can see in her eyes that she wants me to. But Soul says it again and pulls me out of set.
On the platform I thank him. He's right. Why would I want a girl who only does makeup for models in central London as part of my life? There wouldn't be any social benefits for him. He responds with Oh? You liked her? It's amazing sometimes. My friends get distracted and forget that I don't open girls I'm not attracted to. I just find it emotionally dishonest. Anyways, London is full of beautiful women and I am proud of my success.
After the train, we see a smoking hot blonde just sitting in the passenger seat of a parker car. Soul is like wow I wish I could open a girl in a car. I was like dude you can do it. He was like no way. So I'm like let's walk up together and open her. It will be fine. We start walking and I just stop and let him open alone. Hehehehe. So now he no longer has a limiting belief about cars.
Wings of Glory
So I'm out with Sasha again last night. We are both getting texts from every pua we know that they will be in Hoxton Square. Even some of my pivots from Guildford are going to be there. Sasha takes ages to get ready and by the time we leave the house, there are huge lines at the bars we want to go to. He keeps changing bars and I am struggling to get into state. I have a lot of left over anxiety from the daygame session. I start giving Sasha hell for keeping me out of state and he tells me not to blame him for my inner game issues. Bastard! We bounce more bars and he finally picks one he wants to stay in all night. He is wearing a giant, pink feather boa. I feel like I'm with Mystery himself. At the bar, the bouncers are like hell no! No fancy dress. They make him take it off to go in. Unfortunately, his game is powered by his peacocking. He goes to talk to the manager and explains that he is not out on a stag-do. He's not a troublemaker, just a simple Canadian pickup artist. We bounce around and he opens sets so fast. I just can't keep up. He operates at a level I truly admire. He is opening so many girls that I don't know what to do. It's really great for him that he can do it like that. We go downstairs and I get a glass of white to help me relax. I am just trapped winging Sasha all night. I just can't into state. I kinda just needed to go off on my own for 30 to relax. It's hard to get myself sorted in one strange, new venue let alone a series of them.
Then he tortures me. He goes in to reopen a 2set, seated. The bastard chode squats and makes me do it too. I am in backpain hell. I haven't squatted since I got into game. I can't remember much of the conversation, as I spent most of it trying to keep blood from coming out of my mouth. He was gaming ages and I tried to wing him. He is such an attention-monkee that I can't compete unless I'm totally in state. My girl was actually pretty friendly and I could have closed her if I was relaxed and not in epic, epic pain. Sasha eventually kind of closes and we walk away. I give him hell for almost murdering me.
We leave to meet up with Dr. Yen and my hero ZigZag. We take pictures of Sasha and Dr. Yen reenacting Yen's 3minute fclose in the alley. It's actually pretty disturbing. Yen gets us to cut a line of about 40 people and we get into the best bar in the area. We are bouncing around inside. Yen and Sasha start an opening war and the two sidekicks hit the dance floor. Ziggy is on stage dancing in front of everyone and we are just having a blast. We start walking through the crowd and some girl is pushing me from behind. Ten seconds later she is sitting with Ziggy and I outside smoking.
I run a ton of new material on her. I say material, but it's all things I thought of in the moment. I got some pics of her and Ziggy. I joke about them being the two members of my fan club. Ziggy is laughing like a clown faced serial killer. I run Triangle of Trust and it is amazing. Attraction skyrockets. You guys are going to be so lucky when The Don puts it into Routines Manual II. I just submitted it this week and all the Rockstar guys have been field-testing it this week with great success. This girl is loving me so much that she number closes me. It was pretty cool. We all head to the dancefloor along with her friend. She was just my warmup set and I realize I'm not attracted to her, so Ziggy and I run off.
I run into Sasha running a 2set and he begs me to wing him. I really want to find my own target, but I always put my friends first. It's the kind of man I want to be. So I just start gaming the obstacle. She is a really cute blonde from Essex. She freaks out at my cold reads. I guess that she is a teacher and that she teaches younger children. She can't believe that I am just cold reading. She think I'm a cop. Of course I get that almost every girl I meet is a teacher. Law of averages. So it turns out her friend is on an internet date with a massive afc. When he comes back Sasha ejects out of pity for the guy. I am such a good friend that I keep winging even though Sasha has left. The guy bought a drink for me girl. So she gives it to me. I am feeling so alpha. I really work on my comfort game and slow-burn kino. She is a really sweet girl, which I am realizing is one of my top attraction triggers. We grab a quick kiss. Then she pulls back. Her friend has told her she must obey the rules.
She is not allowed to kiss a guy on the first meeting. She is not allowed to sleep with a guy on the fist meeting. Her friend has taught her these rules. She is freshly single and thinks she isn't very good at flirting. She has really tight fashion and is cute. She was really genuine and it was refreshing. I talk about how I notice her fashion all coming together. Then we sit back and I do a ton of body language reads on her friend and her internet date boy. The guy makes it so easy. He is wearing a terrible shirt in the wrong size. Fortunately, he isn't threatened by me. He just lets me game my girl. I kiss my girl again. He goes to buy everyone more drinks and Sasha shows up again. Sasha is running super tight game. We all bust out our cameras. The girls are taking pics and so are we. Sasha runs my photo escalation routine perfectly. I'm so pleased. I have looked at the pics this morning and I still think she's cute. Sasha gives her his card but doesn't numberclose or push the SNL. Out of pity for the guy.
Then we go outside to have a smoke and leave the other two alone. I get another kiss from my girl. She has now broken her rule three times. I know she is thinking about sleeping with me. We sit there talking in the dark and snuggling. I am really working on my comfort game. So I use all the rapport topics I have heard of lately. Talking about hometowns and childhoods and passions. It's just really nice actually. We go back in and internet boy still hasn't kissed his girl. It's stopping my girls escalation ladder. When the two girls are talking for a minute, I lean over and tell him to just be a man and kiss his girl. As a favor to me. He is like slow down buddy, slow down. Let's not rush this thing. I hate and pity him at the same time. I mean here I am giving him one of the best demos in my career and the guy can't see it at all. He is unaware of the Matrix around him.
So I grab my girl and make her promise to tell me all about the awkward kiss moment in the car when he drives them home. It's so funny. We joke about it a ton and we go off. We set up a really solid day2 for Tuesday afternoon. I'm going to try out my kiteflying date. She goes nuts for it. She kisses me in a dark corner and it's sweet. I say goodnight to her and I head off to see movies with Sasha and Ziggy.
Then he tortures me. He goes in to reopen a 2set, seated. The bastard chode squats and makes me do it too. I am in backpain hell. I haven't squatted since I got into game. I can't remember much of the conversation, as I spent most of it trying to keep blood from coming out of my mouth. He was gaming ages and I tried to wing him. He is such an attention-monkee that I can't compete unless I'm totally in state. My girl was actually pretty friendly and I could have closed her if I was relaxed and not in epic, epic pain. Sasha eventually kind of closes and we walk away. I give him hell for almost murdering me.
We leave to meet up with Dr. Yen and my hero ZigZag. We take pictures of Sasha and Dr. Yen reenacting Yen's 3minute fclose in the alley. It's actually pretty disturbing. Yen gets us to cut a line of about 40 people and we get into the best bar in the area. We are bouncing around inside. Yen and Sasha start an opening war and the two sidekicks hit the dance floor. Ziggy is on stage dancing in front of everyone and we are just having a blast. We start walking through the crowd and some girl is pushing me from behind. Ten seconds later she is sitting with Ziggy and I outside smoking.
I run a ton of new material on her. I say material, but it's all things I thought of in the moment. I got some pics of her and Ziggy. I joke about them being the two members of my fan club. Ziggy is laughing like a clown faced serial killer. I run Triangle of Trust and it is amazing. Attraction skyrockets. You guys are going to be so lucky when The Don puts it into Routines Manual II. I just submitted it this week and all the Rockstar guys have been field-testing it this week with great success. This girl is loving me so much that she number closes me. It was pretty cool. We all head to the dancefloor along with her friend. She was just my warmup set and I realize I'm not attracted to her, so Ziggy and I run off.
I run into Sasha running a 2set and he begs me to wing him. I really want to find my own target, but I always put my friends first. It's the kind of man I want to be. So I just start gaming the obstacle. She is a really cute blonde from Essex. She freaks out at my cold reads. I guess that she is a teacher and that she teaches younger children. She can't believe that I am just cold reading. She think I'm a cop. Of course I get that almost every girl I meet is a teacher. Law of averages. So it turns out her friend is on an internet date with a massive afc. When he comes back Sasha ejects out of pity for the guy. I am such a good friend that I keep winging even though Sasha has left. The guy bought a drink for me girl. So she gives it to me. I am feeling so alpha. I really work on my comfort game and slow-burn kino. She is a really sweet girl, which I am realizing is one of my top attraction triggers. We grab a quick kiss. Then she pulls back. Her friend has told her she must obey the rules.
She is not allowed to kiss a guy on the first meeting. She is not allowed to sleep with a guy on the fist meeting. Her friend has taught her these rules. She is freshly single and thinks she isn't very good at flirting. She has really tight fashion and is cute. She was really genuine and it was refreshing. I talk about how I notice her fashion all coming together. Then we sit back and I do a ton of body language reads on her friend and her internet date boy. The guy makes it so easy. He is wearing a terrible shirt in the wrong size. Fortunately, he isn't threatened by me. He just lets me game my girl. I kiss my girl again. He goes to buy everyone more drinks and Sasha shows up again. Sasha is running super tight game. We all bust out our cameras. The girls are taking pics and so are we. Sasha runs my photo escalation routine perfectly. I'm so pleased. I have looked at the pics this morning and I still think she's cute. Sasha gives her his card but doesn't numberclose or push the SNL. Out of pity for the guy.
Then we go outside to have a smoke and leave the other two alone. I get another kiss from my girl. She has now broken her rule three times. I know she is thinking about sleeping with me. We sit there talking in the dark and snuggling. I am really working on my comfort game. So I use all the rapport topics I have heard of lately. Talking about hometowns and childhoods and passions. It's just really nice actually. We go back in and internet boy still hasn't kissed his girl. It's stopping my girls escalation ladder. When the two girls are talking for a minute, I lean over and tell him to just be a man and kiss his girl. As a favor to me. He is like slow down buddy, slow down. Let's not rush this thing. I hate and pity him at the same time. I mean here I am giving him one of the best demos in my career and the guy can't see it at all. He is unaware of the Matrix around him.
So I grab my girl and make her promise to tell me all about the awkward kiss moment in the car when he drives them home. It's so funny. We joke about it a ton and we go off. We set up a really solid day2 for Tuesday afternoon. I'm going to try out my kiteflying date. She goes nuts for it. She kisses me in a dark corner and it's sweet. I say goodnight to her and I head off to see movies with Sasha and Ziggy.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Indian with the Perfect Body
So this is about something that happened in-between last night. I was in the club with a killer popping bud of Soul's. This guy was so cool. I was staring at this one girl and deciding what to do. I sometimes sit in a room and try to decide if I find a girl attractive, which is my mind fighting itself. This girl still haunts me a day later.
Her body was perfect to me. She was the right shade of golden brown. Really skinny. From the neck down her fashion was flawless. She his all of my switches. Soul's mate was like really? She doesn't do it for me bro. But that's the point. We all like different things. So I was wicked attracted to this girls body, but. And isn't there always a but. She had a big nose. She was also wearing a scarf on her head. When Soul came over, he was like don't all Indian girls look like that? As someone who is brown himself, I guess he really knows.
So I never opened this girl. I think that my attraction went to battle with my fear of success. Even though I broke through later with my obstacle LR, I still need to sort this part of my life out. I mean if I am still thinking about this girl's body then surely I was attracted. Why let my brain mix it all up???
Her body was perfect to me. She was the right shade of golden brown. Really skinny. From the neck down her fashion was flawless. She his all of my switches. Soul's mate was like really? She doesn't do it for me bro. But that's the point. We all like different things. So I was wicked attracted to this girls body, but. And isn't there always a but. She had a big nose. She was also wearing a scarf on her head. When Soul came over, he was like don't all Indian girls look like that? As someone who is brown himself, I guess he really knows.
So I never opened this girl. I think that my attraction went to battle with my fear of success. Even though I broke through later with my obstacle LR, I still need to sort this part of my life out. I mean if I am still thinking about this girl's body then surely I was attracted. Why let my brain mix it all up???
FristDay Game with Sasha
So today had ups and downs. I have crippling daytime AA for some reason. I am really struggling right now. Sometimes because my night game is at a decent level, people miss my struggle and don't coach me enough. Each guy needs different attentions. I talked to Sasha today and he really pushed me a couple of times. I didn't open as many sets as I would like to. But I did shortnumber close a black, french model on the train with him. As soon as a set is open I feel fine, but that initial moment is still really hard for me. It's like being at square one. The girl on the train was exaclty my type, but I closed her because she wanted to take her and her model friends to a really trendy bar tonight. If I was djing tonight, I would definately have enough value for her. She kept saying how bad she wanted to see me dj. It was great.
On the streets it took me ages to open. I have like 40 daygame openers I have been taught this week and they just aren't congruent for me. I start thinking which one, which one everytime I see a girl. I have decided to stick with a mix of what I've learned from Soul and from Ziggy for right now. I want to stick with more genuine and open-honest rather than funny or hyper-direct. Just something sweet and sincere. So I did open on really cute girl near the end today. She was just really nice. She was sweet, but immediately dropped the bf bomb. I ran back to Sasha and was almost heaving. I did one funny opener earlier where the girl told me F, No! That was so funny for me.
Even though to some people opening one really cute girl is nothing, to me it is so much. If I open one really cute girl a day for a year, that is 365 cute girls. That is really a lot. Rockstar is fast for me in some areas and slow in others. It is a growing process.
On the streets it took me ages to open. I have like 40 daygame openers I have been taught this week and they just aren't congruent for me. I start thinking which one, which one everytime I see a girl. I have decided to stick with a mix of what I've learned from Soul and from Ziggy for right now. I want to stick with more genuine and open-honest rather than funny or hyper-direct. Just something sweet and sincere. So I did open on really cute girl near the end today. She was just really nice. She was sweet, but immediately dropped the bf bomb. I ran back to Sasha and was almost heaving. I did one funny opener earlier where the girl told me F, No! That was so funny for me.
Even though to some people opening one really cute girl is nothing, to me it is so much. If I open one really cute girl a day for a year, that is 365 cute girls. That is really a lot. Rockstar is fast for me in some areas and slow in others. It is a growing process.
LR - Closing the Obstacle
Me and Prizefighter head off to meet up with Soul at Abacus. On the way he asks for my oneitis story. I drop it on him and he wanted to slap me I used to be so lame. Oh well. We get there and he can't get in because he is wearing trainers. I'm not sure if trainers can get into onanon either. It's why I have different shoes for night and day game.
He decides to try onanon with the other guys. I head into the club alone and annoyed. I was really looking forward to spending time with him. The club is packed, but the ration is at least 5to1. It was insane. I meet up with Soul and some other good dancers. We split a bottle of white and look at me I'm drunk. We hit the dance floor and I just start dropping some moves. Eventually we get a circle of people watching us. But it's all dudes and chubby girls. Soul runs off and comes back with two brown girls. Game on.
We are pinging for another spitroast and so we keep switching girls and building attraction. He works some other girls. I try to kiss both girls and both do the head turn. Eventually I get tired of their shenanigans and the girls go off to bounce around. We go prowling for fresh game.
More stuff happens.
Soul has his girl in isolation for an hour. I asked if he ever got the kiss. He says no, so I say that he has no chance of a close. He then teaches me something new. Some girls won't kiss in the club, but they will go home with you. He is about to extract both girls to his apartment, so he asks me to wing him. I just wanted to go back to Sasha's and chill with him. I was like ok, but if I'm coming back stuff is going to happen to my girl. She comes over and asks me to come back with them ans says that she doesn't want to be alone while Soul plays with her friend.
We get on the bus and I realize I am the only whitey around. We split up the girls and I start cuddling mine. Pinging compliance. Just putting my arm around her and her head is on my shoulder. We stop at a chip shop on the way home and the two of us are in line inside. Soul is outside with hers. She asks if I have a girlfriend. I hear "Do you feel like banging me?" I turn to her and say do you think I would get frisky on the dancefloor with you if I had a girlfriend? She asks when was I ever frisky. I said when I tried to kiss you. She said what? I didn't notice that. I said it looked something like this. Grab her face. And I alpha-kiss her.
We end up back at Soul's. He is getting wine. I send his target to check on him. Then I bring the noise. I followed Braddock's sexual progression model to see how it works. It's really safe. Everything went perfectly. I also got to try out my new magnum condoms. What a difference. It was my first time wearing one and I was worried that maybe I'd bitten off more than I could chew and the condom would just fall off. But it fit perfectly.
It turns out Soul's girl has a history with his housemate. So the housemate somehow ends up banging her. Soul is the only one left in the cold. He was up with the housemate trying to spitroast that girl. Then when that didn't work he came down to join us. We tried for a spitroast with the obstacle, but she wasn't that kinky. So instead I asked her what her name was. She was a nice enough girl, but we both new it was a one-night thing.
I asked her why me instead of Soul while I was banging her. She said that he was the kinda guy she could just be friends with. It's so funny. If she had been the initial target, it would all have played out differently. Usually, I am the LJBF guy. She also told me that I as only her second white guy. But that I was much better in bed. Sweet. I didn't even bring my A game.
The main reason I closed her was a talk that I had with Soul in the club. He went off on my about my success barrier. Once I decide I can bang a girl, I don't. I lose attraction. So tonight I kicked right through that door and banged a girl I found pretty cute, but not gf material. Lesson learned. I need to be more goal oriented.
He decides to try onanon with the other guys. I head into the club alone and annoyed. I was really looking forward to spending time with him. The club is packed, but the ration is at least 5to1. It was insane. I meet up with Soul and some other good dancers. We split a bottle of white and look at me I'm drunk. We hit the dance floor and I just start dropping some moves. Eventually we get a circle of people watching us. But it's all dudes and chubby girls. Soul runs off and comes back with two brown girls. Game on.
We are pinging for another spitroast and so we keep switching girls and building attraction. He works some other girls. I try to kiss both girls and both do the head turn. Eventually I get tired of their shenanigans and the girls go off to bounce around. We go prowling for fresh game.
More stuff happens.
Soul has his girl in isolation for an hour. I asked if he ever got the kiss. He says no, so I say that he has no chance of a close. He then teaches me something new. Some girls won't kiss in the club, but they will go home with you. He is about to extract both girls to his apartment, so he asks me to wing him. I just wanted to go back to Sasha's and chill with him. I was like ok, but if I'm coming back stuff is going to happen to my girl. She comes over and asks me to come back with them ans says that she doesn't want to be alone while Soul plays with her friend.
We get on the bus and I realize I am the only whitey around. We split up the girls and I start cuddling mine. Pinging compliance. Just putting my arm around her and her head is on my shoulder. We stop at a chip shop on the way home and the two of us are in line inside. Soul is outside with hers. She asks if I have a girlfriend. I hear "Do you feel like banging me?" I turn to her and say do you think I would get frisky on the dancefloor with you if I had a girlfriend? She asks when was I ever frisky. I said when I tried to kiss you. She said what? I didn't notice that. I said it looked something like this. Grab her face. And I alpha-kiss her.
We end up back at Soul's. He is getting wine. I send his target to check on him. Then I bring the noise. I followed Braddock's sexual progression model to see how it works. It's really safe. Everything went perfectly. I also got to try out my new magnum condoms. What a difference. It was my first time wearing one and I was worried that maybe I'd bitten off more than I could chew and the condom would just fall off. But it fit perfectly.
It turns out Soul's girl has a history with his housemate. So the housemate somehow ends up banging her. Soul is the only one left in the cold. He was up with the housemate trying to spitroast that girl. Then when that didn't work he came down to join us. We tried for a spitroast with the obstacle, but she wasn't that kinky. So instead I asked her what her name was. She was a nice enough girl, but we both new it was a one-night thing.
I asked her why me instead of Soul while I was banging her. She said that he was the kinda guy she could just be friends with. It's so funny. If she had been the initial target, it would all have played out differently. Usually, I am the LJBF guy. She also told me that I as only her second white guy. But that I was much better in bed. Sweet. I didn't even bring my A game.
The main reason I closed her was a talk that I had with Soul in the club. He went off on my about my success barrier. Once I decide I can bang a girl, I don't. I lose attraction. So tonight I kicked right through that door and banged a girl I found pretty cute, but not gf material. Lesson learned. I need to be more goal oriented.
Friday, July 11, 2008
I got Sashad
Getting Sashad - You ask you friend to wing and he becomes so obsessed with his own target from your set, that he lets an obstacle blow you out
So last night was insane. Keys and I didn't get home til 8 this morning. I feel like death warmed over and I hate writing this right now. But if I don't do it now, it will never happen. We were doing day game yesterday and nothing was happening for me. I had to leave after 90 mins to meet mr m for a bit and then I went to chill with my homey, the legend, Soul. We were listening to tunes and relaxing and opened a bottle of white. I was gonna take a light night and just go to bed early. Phobos came over to talk about editing some of the badass rockstar movies I have been making all week. I was so drunk off half a bottle of white. It's unreal. I started making all these inappropraite jokes and they both turn and are like wtf man? You drink like a girl. I was like hell yeS!!!
So this whole time Keys is texting me. He's out with Black Swan, Optimist, and Prizefighter. They are at punk. Man I didn't wanna go til i was so drunky. I convince Keys we can party all night and catch a morning train. I have work at 9am but wtf ever you know? Anyways, I rush to meet the guys. Yad, Yen, and Ziggy are outside. It's the whole end of the alphabet. I get in line and open the two girls in front of me. Yad comes over way too soon and joins in, blowing me out of the set. I don't really care.
Inside I meet the guys and I'm excited and in a dancestate, but it takes a bit to get into gaming state. I am talking to girls here and there, but nothing is hooking. I go outside to run the greatest type of game of all, nightclub street game. It's the best of all worlds. I open and hook 3 different sets. They all kind of blurred until HBMaiden. Wow.
There are few girls that make my crap my pants. This girl was one. She walked up while I was talking to 2 other people I'd opened. I don't remember them. She was so stunning. She looks like the girl from Star Wars. She is half french. A part-time model. And a student at one of the best schools in the uk. We get deep into attraction. She keeps qualifying herself to me. It's going great. I am doing heavy kino. I pick her up and she wraps her legs around me. That my friends, is an IOI. It's going great
Then some French loser guy comes in to try and blow me out. So Sasha comes over to wing me. He gets totally into her blond friend and suddenly I'm in Vietnam. There are shit-tests flying all over the place. The French dude tells her that other people think I'm gay. In French. So then she is confused and asks me. Then within 2 minutes she is telling me how the French guy was gay and she slept with him the night before. So I'm like you guys should kiss to celebrate. She does and he is obviously awkward. I am emotionally unreactice. The whole time I'm thinking, I needed my wing to block this dude. Sigh. I mean I should have been able to weather this storm on my own. But this girl was a 10 in my books. Beautiful and sweet.
Basically, I was in attraction and qualification way too long. I need to work on comfort. I did isolate her a few times, but I pushed kino and seduction. I need to really work on phase focus. But I do wish my wing had stepped up a little more. I mean we all read about these wing rules, but how strict are they? It's just a shame there were so many model-quality girls there last nite. Really artsy/emo girls are really challenging for me.
Oh ya. The thing that really annoyed me is that when I got someone to take a pic of me and the girl. Sasha runs up and grabs me and totally f-s up the pic. He was so busy trying to be funny and bounce off me to build attraction with his girl, that he ruined that. And anyone knows me knows how much I get annoyed when people ruin my picture routine.
I don't hate the dude, he is one of my friends, but where else can I aim my frustration.
The rest of the night was a blur. It ended up with Keys, Yan, Sasha and I. We ran so many random street sets all over central London. Everyone got numbers last night, except for me. Actually, I closed one girl, but I don't really remember who. And I got a cute pic with a girl early on. I think I need to ratchet down my sexual kino and stick to more slow burn. I think it suits my style. Sexual seeding and progressive escalation.
PS. I owe Sasha 7 pounds and that might be the reason behind last night.
HERE IS SASHA'S VERSION OF LAST NIGHT - DEFENDING HIMSELF
So last night was insane. Keys and I didn't get home til 8 this morning. I feel like death warmed over and I hate writing this right now. But if I don't do it now, it will never happen. We were doing day game yesterday and nothing was happening for me. I had to leave after 90 mins to meet mr m for a bit and then I went to chill with my homey, the legend, Soul. We were listening to tunes and relaxing and opened a bottle of white. I was gonna take a light night and just go to bed early. Phobos came over to talk about editing some of the badass rockstar movies I have been making all week. I was so drunk off half a bottle of white. It's unreal. I started making all these inappropraite jokes and they both turn and are like wtf man? You drink like a girl. I was like hell yeS!!!
So this whole time Keys is texting me. He's out with Black Swan, Optimist, and Prizefighter. They are at punk. Man I didn't wanna go til i was so drunky. I convince Keys we can party all night and catch a morning train. I have work at 9am but wtf ever you know? Anyways, I rush to meet the guys. Yad, Yen, and Ziggy are outside. It's the whole end of the alphabet. I get in line and open the two girls in front of me. Yad comes over way too soon and joins in, blowing me out of the set. I don't really care.
Inside I meet the guys and I'm excited and in a dancestate, but it takes a bit to get into gaming state. I am talking to girls here and there, but nothing is hooking. I go outside to run the greatest type of game of all, nightclub street game. It's the best of all worlds. I open and hook 3 different sets. They all kind of blurred until HBMaiden. Wow.
There are few girls that make my crap my pants. This girl was one. She walked up while I was talking to 2 other people I'd opened. I don't remember them. She was so stunning. She looks like the girl from Star Wars. She is half french. A part-time model. And a student at one of the best schools in the uk. We get deep into attraction. She keeps qualifying herself to me. It's going great. I am doing heavy kino. I pick her up and she wraps her legs around me. That my friends, is an IOI. It's going great
Then some French loser guy comes in to try and blow me out. So Sasha comes over to wing me. He gets totally into her blond friend and suddenly I'm in Vietnam. There are shit-tests flying all over the place. The French dude tells her that other people think I'm gay. In French. So then she is confused and asks me. Then within 2 minutes she is telling me how the French guy was gay and she slept with him the night before. So I'm like you guys should kiss to celebrate. She does and he is obviously awkward. I am emotionally unreactice. The whole time I'm thinking, I needed my wing to block this dude. Sigh. I mean I should have been able to weather this storm on my own. But this girl was a 10 in my books. Beautiful and sweet.
Basically, I was in attraction and qualification way too long. I need to work on comfort. I did isolate her a few times, but I pushed kino and seduction. I need to really work on phase focus. But I do wish my wing had stepped up a little more. I mean we all read about these wing rules, but how strict are they? It's just a shame there were so many model-quality girls there last nite. Really artsy/emo girls are really challenging for me.
Oh ya. The thing that really annoyed me is that when I got someone to take a pic of me and the girl. Sasha runs up and grabs me and totally f-s up the pic. He was so busy trying to be funny and bounce off me to build attraction with his girl, that he ruined that. And anyone knows me knows how much I get annoyed when people ruin my picture routine.
I don't hate the dude, he is one of my friends, but where else can I aim my frustration.
The rest of the night was a blur. It ended up with Keys, Yan, Sasha and I. We ran so many random street sets all over central London. Everyone got numbers last night, except for me. Actually, I closed one girl, but I don't really remember who. And I got a cute pic with a girl early on. I think I need to ratchet down my sexual kino and stick to more slow burn. I think it suits my style. Sexual seeding and progressive escalation.
PS. I owe Sasha 7 pounds and that might be the reason behind last night.
HERE IS SASHA'S VERSION OF LAST NIGHT - DEFENDING HIMSELF
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Rockstar - Week 1 - Wed
So i went up to london for our night out with Keychain on the train. On the way up he randomly starts telling a story about kissing sparkle. Imagine my joy. That girl haunts me. And apparently she is the town bicycle. Sigh. I cant wait to stop bouncing into her and stories about her.
So we get a little lost on the way but i call Daxx and we are the first ones there. This guy is really sound. He is a really nice guy who has a good connection with his family. Some of the guys think his game is good only because he is so damn handsome. We spent over an hour getting a talk from him. Some of it was good. The bar was really dry. Almost no sets. There were a couple of cute girls but i didn't do a single approach. I just couldn't get in state. We were all just meandering. Daxx decides to bounce to china white. I dont have that kind of money this week and i have to catch the train home soon. I am in the class i had to come to right now. It is boring so here i am writing this blog on my phone. I brought my laptop but of course the battery is dead.
So we hit the train home. To be honest Keychain and i were pretty disappointed. Its one hour each way for us and costs a bit of dosh to ride the train. It was raining so all the girls stayed home. After bitching on the train we decide to hit a late night club. I call some friends to meet up and the four of us are chilling.
So we get into the club and it's pretty empty. Sigh. But lucky me my milf is there. She is super excited to see me. I have thought about converting her into my fb. But lots of baggage.
So i chat to her a bit and throw some kino her way. She is getting chatted up by two older dudes. I love this. She always hooks up with old creepy guys and then tells me how much she regrets it later. I bounce outside for a smoke and 2 girls open our circle. They are looking for a lighter....and guess who has one...hehe. They are nothing special and we start chatting through them. Keychain at one point isolates the girl I was working and puts his back between me and her. She was blonde so I didn't even think about it. Eventually we drop those girls and head back inside. By now my milf is talking to some old bald dude in the smoking area. I walk up, stande between them. and stick my tongue in her mouth. Because I can.
Keychain saw it and totally loved it. It put me 100% in state! So I go inside to chat to my homies. I haven't seen these guys in a while and they are both really quality guys. I like having friends around who aren't in game. It's more relaxed. I see a girl walk by that I've sarged before. I totally don't know her name but I make her sit with me. She is the girl from my tiny social circles post. She has hooked up with a mate of mine and totally freaked out after. To be honest she is only cute at night, but she is sweet when she's relaxed and not being self-conscious. I am in super-kino mode so I push the escalation hard. She isn't too into it because I number-closed her best friend a few weeks ago. Altthough she was actually always my target. I got her friend dating my instawing from that night. At least they were...haven't seen him in a few weeks. She ejects but pinky swears to come back and see me. It never happened. Se la vi.
Suddenly, I'm sitting there and my 2 mates are tired and heading home. I give 'em love and send 'em off. I text keychain and he is in-set and needs a wing. I walk over to find him, see the obstacle, and walk away. I think this has got to be a joke! I decide that I gotta do it and get my grenade vest on. I bounce in and just open the obstacle and totally ignore his target. I spin-isolate her and get her back to Keychain. I am just asking her the most inane questions I can to keep her from turning back but also dodging attraction like I'm in the damn Matrix. Then two of her friends walk up. A tall, chubby dude with glasses and a girl that seems alright. She totally has her boobs hanging out of her shirt, but far be it from me to complain. I almost feel bad for that poor bastard now. He had his arm around the girl. It was her birthday party. I grab her and throw her arms over my shoulders and put us face to face. I realize from my kino that she is single. I don't even ask. I am demonstrating my super accelerated kino to Keychain, because he had asked about it earlier. I spin the girl. And I have her spanking me within about 10 seconds. Then I'm squeezing her butt to see who's is harder. Mine is rock hard. It's my secret weapon. I'm gonna lose it when I get skinny tho. It won't be unexpected anymore. Back to the lesson. I was about to say that I have fast kino, but not like Dr. Yen. I just realized, however, that I accidentally absorbed a kino move off him last week without realizing it. I picked the girl up. It's a powerful kino move. Then I was like wow, you're heavier than I expected. You're really dense. You got a uranium necklace? She didn't know how to take that. I was super alpha. At this point Keychain runs off outside with his girl to start playing closing games. He used his ultrasecrect kiss close but he won't even tell me. It's ok. I have been using one I developed recently. I might post about it later, but it's not refined totally just yet. Anyways, the tall fat orbiter dude is now standing behind me and off to the side. He's the worst kind of obstacle. He's in love with her. The bar stinks of it.
Oh ya I skipped a part. When I was chatting to the orbiter at first he asked who I was and why I was there talking to them. I was like dude, I'm just distracting you guys while my friend chats up your friend. He did not like that at all. Fortunately, he wasn't even beta. He was some Greek letter at the end of the alphabet that only Soul knows about. So he just stood there. Back to the story....
So I grab the girl to go dancing. I trying my kclose like 4-5 times. I know I tried a bunch on the dancefloor. I am in hyperstate and doing massive kino. She was grinding on my gear big time. Then she is like I'm not good at dancing with boys. I was like let me tell you a secret. I was like I'm a man. (i know i say like a lot, but i was born in the valley dudes!) So I keep pushing hard and she is like dude aren't you gay. I was like what? She was like you and Keychain are together right? Now, me and him were barely near each other all night. Seperate sets. I was like girl, he's outside with his tongue in your friends mouth and I have been trying to put mine in yours for like 10 minutes. She was like I think you're gay. I was like you are making me feel something I have never felt before. I'm so confused. Hold me. So I put me head into her boobs. Then guess who shows up.
Captain orbiter. He hates me almost as much as he hates Keychain. Ha! He hands the girl a drink, none for him. That made me want to give him a copy of Magic Bullets. But to find the Matrix, one must seek the Matrix. So she is holding a drink and he actually reaches around her shoulder to put his arm around her to grab it for a sip for himself. He is trying to alpha me and in a way it is super cute. I wanted to be like dude, I was the god of the orbiters for two years. You probably worshiped me when I was infected with one-itis. I was damn patient zero. He is like we have to go now into her ear. The guy couldn't even whisper. I heard it on a loud dancefloor. Sigh. So they bounced off, but I didn't really care.
I went back to my table next to my milf and grabbed a few cheeky snogs in front of 3 dudes who were after her. Then one of them snogger her. So I snogged her again. The dude got pissed and left. I don't know why. One guy I offered a devil's threeway, but he freaked out. I blame Soul big time. What a bad influence!!! So I take milfy to the bar to buy me a drink. and guess who is next to her but big boobs. So I put an arm around both of my ladies. HAHA. It was so money. Then I make milf take a pic of me and big boobs. I will post it on the Lounge, but let's just say I'm not proud. Then I start taking pics to escalate with my milf. I pass the camera to Keychain, who has just walked up. And I swear he almost made me kick him.
He takes the camera and takes a picture of himself. I am like dude wtf are you running a routine on me. Then instead of taking a pic of me and milf. He actually passes it to king orbiter. For a second I thought my camera was getting a shortcut to the ground. The guy took a terrible pic, while Keychain has his camera out and is running the routine I taught him on the train on his girl. I swear. I even told him that my number one issue is when a wing f-s up my photo routine. So I walked him through it on the train. Obviously to no avail. Needless to say all my kissing pics of my milf are mostly of the back of my damn head. Don't worry I already talked to Keychain about it and sorted it all out. He didn't realize orbiter hated me. The guy missed all the drama while he was snogging his girl.
Then I was sitting at the table with milf, her friend, and her friends x from 13 years ago. The guy was a muscle guy. And totally after my milf. When we kissed he hated it. Then he was threatening to give me a slap. Milf was like what the hell I love Paladin. So he chilled. But some people. I wasn't into that scene. Don't get me wrong. I'm on good terms with the bouncers in that joint and they were bigger than this dude. But I think all people that like to bar fight should get their own island to live on together. Knowhatimean? Unfortunately, I think that happened already and that that island is called England.
So I start getting bored of being near negative vibes and me and Keys head off home together for a walking debrief. Milf keeps sending me sexy texts and saying she can kiss better. It's cute but I gotta get up early. While we are chatting near my house, orbiter and those 3 girls walked by. It was hilarious. I love when people are so socially uncalibrated that they can't detect my lack of caring. The guy was walking arm-in-arm with his 3 girls like he was the king of the universe. We just laughed. People are so silly.
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What did I learn from all of this. If I hyper-escalate a girl, with almost no comfort. I might lose the kiss. That's all I learned. If you have comments leave them on my blog please. Thanks heroes!!!
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Rockstar v School
So I am in the final 3 weeks of music school. Yesterday I switched into essay mode. For me school is my number 1 priority and commitment. I really want to give as much as I can to Rockstar. So I just worked my butt off last night on my essays. I have to finish 4 of them by the 31st. It's a full three weeks from tomorrow. I have met with 3 of my teachers now and all of them are going to look at my versions next week. I had one teacher go over my essay today and he gave me a ton of things to work on. I told him that I want a 1st and he told me what to do. I feel really good about what I've got accomplished. I will get a ton more finished tomorrow afternoon. I think that I can get in a really good position by friday night. It's just difficult for me to bounce between essay-man and pua-man. I know that this is a new inner game test. I am also dealing with finances, as I am waiting for some paychecks to come through. Then I have to wait for them to clear at the bank. In a few weeks everything should be alright. But I just never know in my line of work. I wish I could just sort out a regular part-time teaching job in London. I am also just trying not to be stressed out as I wait to hear from my 2 universities about the MA programs. I am into one school, but it's my 3rd choice. So I have many issues swirling around my mind, along with all these girls that seem to be going nowhere. I need to tighten up my game. I know that Rockstar is a major part of that. The truth is that I want to be good enough to teach. I have helped at come bootcamps, but I just want to explode skillwise. I was so annoyed to miss last night, as I am a big fan of 5.0 personally. I was really interested to see his game in action. I still feel a little on the outside of the other 5 dudes, but that's mostly because of the fact that I am in a different place. I have known most of these instructors for months now. I really want to become a part of the team though. Basically, I am caught between finishing my essays as fast as I can and missing a few more days now OR taking longer to do my essays but having my mind split between both. It's a tough place to be. But I am a man so I should stop bitching.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Day 2s
So I'm in a bit of a malaise. Last night I finally had a day2 sorted with a girl from like 2 months ago. And suddenly I didn't feel like going. I was stuck in an extended Rockstar meeting with London_Hunk and I was just worn out. I was getting my body scientifically measure. Little secret, it wasn't great. I mean on one level I am wicked pleased with my body so far. But the glass is still only half full. I mean me weight is down to 89kg, but I need to drop like 12 more kg.....
Anyways, I am late and we set it up for later. Then I decide to try and set up a Day2 with HBspanish from the train on Sunday. She lives right near my house. Glass of wine...a little comfort...shag. But I cant' sort it out. I call her...she's on a train (irony) and can't hear me. She calls me back 15 mins later but I'm on the tube so I miss it. And I never reach her again. Sigh. I suck at phone game. Then at like 11 the other girl texts that she guesses I'm not coming. To be honest my attraction just dipped.
Now a girl I Day2ed but ejected from quickly 2 months ago texted today. She wanted to go out Friday night, but I am out Rockstarring then, so instead of I her coming over tomorrow afternoon. I don't even know why? I just kind of did it to do it. I swear. Last time she was totally dressed down. Like flip flops and track pants. I mean that is pretty insulting. I am cute! Anyways...I have these girls I'm bouncing.
Also, I have my HB10 back on the line. This was my direct approach with Soul, street-night game like a month ago? I facebook closed her as she had no mobile (maybe) and she just popped on and added me yesterday and emailed me. Good Lord she is so cute in all her pics. She's got a kid, but I've got a hairy back. Facebook chat sucks so bad, but then I got her msn. We added each other but she hasn't popped on yet. She lives in another different city (not London of course), but she is really sexy. And yes, by sexy I mean rail thin and brunette ok?
Also my x from Thailand found me the other week and we have been webcamming some. I haven't seen her online since last week tho. I got her house mate to pull her top up while she was asleep. Obviously, I recorded all this jazz, but it's way better in the moment. Soul tried to get in on 3way online spitroast, but she wasn't interested. In Thailand only the men are bi.
I think those are all the girls I have on the line........no wait....I tell a lie.
I have been getting texts from a Polish girl I met at the Eric Clapton concert. She hit me up at 1am last night. I have to convert her somehow soon. I keep sleeping through her texts. Lately, I have woken up half a dozen times with my phone open to a text I don't remember reading. Thank God I haven't sleep-replied yet!
Ok. That's it. The girls I don't wanna shag wanna shag me. And logistics are between me and the girls I want to shag. I called HBSpanish tonight, but no answer. Might call again next week. But now my attraction is waning. All the other Rockstars are out tonight sarging with 5.0, who is one sound guy. And I am stuck at home trying to finish my essays for uni.
Anyways, I am late and we set it up for later. Then I decide to try and set up a Day2 with HBspanish from the train on Sunday. She lives right near my house. Glass of wine...a little comfort...shag. But I cant' sort it out. I call her...she's on a train (irony) and can't hear me. She calls me back 15 mins later but I'm on the tube so I miss it. And I never reach her again. Sigh. I suck at phone game. Then at like 11 the other girl texts that she guesses I'm not coming. To be honest my attraction just dipped.
Now a girl I Day2ed but ejected from quickly 2 months ago texted today. She wanted to go out Friday night, but I am out Rockstarring then, so instead of I her coming over tomorrow afternoon. I don't even know why? I just kind of did it to do it. I swear. Last time she was totally dressed down. Like flip flops and track pants. I mean that is pretty insulting. I am cute! Anyways...I have these girls I'm bouncing.
Also, I have my HB10 back on the line. This was my direct approach with Soul, street-night game like a month ago? I facebook closed her as she had no mobile (maybe) and she just popped on and added me yesterday and emailed me. Good Lord she is so cute in all her pics. She's got a kid, but I've got a hairy back. Facebook chat sucks so bad, but then I got her msn. We added each other but she hasn't popped on yet. She lives in another different city (not London of course), but she is really sexy. And yes, by sexy I mean rail thin and brunette ok?
Also my x from Thailand found me the other week and we have been webcamming some. I haven't seen her online since last week tho. I got her house mate to pull her top up while she was asleep. Obviously, I recorded all this jazz, but it's way better in the moment. Soul tried to get in on 3way online spitroast, but she wasn't interested. In Thailand only the men are bi.
I think those are all the girls I have on the line........no wait....I tell a lie.
I have been getting texts from a Polish girl I met at the Eric Clapton concert. She hit me up at 1am last night. I have to convert her somehow soon. I keep sleeping through her texts. Lately, I have woken up half a dozen times with my phone open to a text I don't remember reading. Thank God I haven't sleep-replied yet!
Ok. That's it. The girls I don't wanna shag wanna shag me. And logistics are between me and the girls I want to shag. I called HBSpanish tonight, but no answer. Might call again next week. But now my attraction is waning. All the other Rockstars are out tonight sarging with 5.0, who is one sound guy. And I am stuck at home trying to finish my essays for uni.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Conquistador
So I'm on the train with Keychain. He and Optimist each opened a street set.I chickened out. And I'm supposed to be the instructor. So we
go up and down the train and don't really see anything. I see one dark girl with black hair, but she's asleep and there is a bag on the seat near her.We get to the end of the train and can't find nothing, so we finally end up making this dude give up his bag's seat. I am sitting directly across from her. I am semi-attracted, but I have never run a "sleeping set." So I am just telling Keychain about game and my life etc. He's a new project rockstar dude and I'm helping to record that event a lot... Anyways, we are across from this girl a good 20 minutes, but I'll be damned if she wouldn't just wake up! I couldn't tell if she was listening in to our conversation, but I also didn't care.
Then my hero the conductor shows up! And look who didn't have a ticket. She is like I was in a rush and I really wanted to buy one. In broken English, and you know how I feel about that. I start making faces at her that the conductor can't see. I open about her being a bad girl. But at least she was honest about when she got on the train. I chat to her a bit. My game wasn't super tight, but I was friendly. I at one point was like you should hang out with me and Keychain. He was basically being
silent. So later on I said that he gets really quiet around pretty girls.
Then the train stops and Keychain runs off to let me be alone with her.
I just shake her hand and leave abruptly too. Mostly because I wasn't sure
how attracted I was. I struggle with this sometimes. I run up to Keychain
near the stairs and I have to go up them and he is going the other way.
So I say later and she is there going up them too. So I reopen with
are you following me? We chat more walking on the bridge. Nothing special
really! But I was just vibing really hard as I was in state. We get to the exit. And I hug her goodbye too push the kino a little. It's a little awkward as I am deciding if I want her number. And she is like can I give you my number. She pulls out her pad and writes it out. Really sexy to me. And then I double cheek kiss her and say goodnight. I could have pushed for the instant date I guess, but I am damn tired. I just texted her and we'll see how it goes. But overall I'm pretty pleased.
Now I am really attracted to her because she closed me. She was able to really ramp up my attraction and now I can't stop thinking about her. Interesting how personality is so important.
go up and down the train and don't really see anything. I see one dark girl with black hair, but she's asleep and there is a bag on the seat near her.We get to the end of the train and can't find nothing, so we finally end up making this dude give up his bag's seat. I am sitting directly across from her. I am semi-attracted, but I have never run a "sleeping set." So I am just telling Keychain about game and my life etc. He's a new project rockstar dude and I'm helping to record that event a lot... Anyways, we are across from this girl a good 20 minutes, but I'll be damned if she wouldn't just wake up! I couldn't tell if she was listening in to our conversation, but I also didn't care.
Then my hero the conductor shows up! And look who didn't have a ticket. She is like I was in a rush and I really wanted to buy one. In broken English, and you know how I feel about that. I start making faces at her that the conductor can't see. I open about her being a bad girl. But at least she was honest about when she got on the train. I chat to her a bit. My game wasn't super tight, but I was friendly. I at one point was like you should hang out with me and Keychain. He was basically being
silent. So later on I said that he gets really quiet around pretty girls.
Then the train stops and Keychain runs off to let me be alone with her.
I just shake her hand and leave abruptly too. Mostly because I wasn't sure
how attracted I was. I struggle with this sometimes. I run up to Keychain
near the stairs and I have to go up them and he is going the other way.
So I say later and she is there going up them too. So I reopen with
are you following me? We chat more walking on the bridge. Nothing special
really! But I was just vibing really hard as I was in state. We get to the exit. And I hug her goodbye too push the kino a little. It's a little awkward as I am deciding if I want her number. And she is like can I give you my number. She pulls out her pad and writes it out. Really sexy to me. And then I double cheek kiss her and say goodnight. I could have pushed for the instant date I guess, but I am damn tired. I just texted her and we'll see how it goes. But overall I'm pretty pleased.
Now I am really attracted to her because she closed me. She was able to really ramp up my attraction and now I can't stop thinking about her. Interesting how personality is so important.
Routine Manual 2
So I saw a post by The Don today about the new routines manual. They want people to submit their own personal routines. The prize is a free copy of the manual. Which I guess is cool. I wouldn't mind having one routine put in there, as a way to get my name out there a little bit, but I wonder how many of my routines I would have to send in to get one into the book. I mean I only have to submit one great one. I am thinking on it. I might send in 5-10 of them. I doubt more than 1 would get in. I will talk to Soul and Mr M about it today. I think I will put together a list to show Soul first before I email anything to The Don.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Pickup Archives
So one of my new projects is to create a single repository for all great pua knowledge. A central database to hold all great articles. I want people to be able to vote for the quality of articles. So that they are ranked by quality more than anything else. I really want to create one place for all knowledge to be safely stored. I want to bring together the knowledge of all the greats around the world.
Anyways. I have been coding my website all night and it is pretty complex. I am using pligg. It is set up. But I want to be able to set up who can submit articles, to avoid becoming a bastion for spam and noobs. I also can't figure out yet how to import the articles instead of just hosting a link....
Anyways. I have been coding my website all night and it is pretty complex. I am using pligg. It is set up. But I want to be able to set up who can submit articles, to avoid becoming a bastion for spam and noobs. I also can't figure out yet how to import the articles instead of just hosting a link....
Racial Motivation
Last week someone was asking my why I love London so much more than Nashville. One of the things I love here is how little race matters. As you can see from my field reports, I love all races. In Nashville, it is a big deal to date outside your race. I mean I like to bounce from India to China to France and back to the Caribbean. In London that's just Tuesday. I saw this amazing video today and it reminded me a lot of an interview I recently listened to with Asian Playboy.
This is hilarious and pretty accurate for America. In my hometown it's really hard to break into the Asian communities. In London there are some groups that are still nigh impossible to break into, but there are plenty of great options. I think all women are beautiful and I love living in a city filled with every single kind!
This is hilarious and pretty accurate for America. In my hometown it's really hard to break into the Asian communities. In London there are some groups that are still nigh impossible to break into, but there are plenty of great options. I think all women are beautiful and I love living in a city filled with every single kind!
Getting my EduMAcation
So I just got my first acceptance letter to finish my masters. I'm well pleased. It was from the first place I applied, but it's my 3rd choice. I can't wait to hear from the other two schools in the next two weeks. It means that I am set for moving into London! I am so excited to improve my education skills and live in the middle of the city I love. I have a great feeling about the other two schools. I will let you guys know when I know.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Falling Star
So I run into a guy I've basically cut out of my life tonight. He is a real gossip-monger and he can't shut his mouth, so I have distanced myself a lot even though I like him. He starts asking about the Sparkle thing, so I know that others are talking. He tells me that my house mate is my friend and that Sparkle doesn't matter. I only have like 2 minutes to chat. He tells me how Sparkle and his gf are buddies (they all met her through me). And how she never thought I liked her as more than a friend, so she was totally surprised. Now this statement tells me several things. First, that my house mate repeated my conversation with him to Sparkle and others. He repeated what I said when I said I couldn't trust him. Also that I'm in a tiny social circle and I need to get out so I can breathe. I also now know that Sparkle lies to everyone not just me. I heard a totally different story about how I was too into her from her best friend. The point here isn't about my attraction level, but more about the fact that she lies in almost every conversation. So I'm glad that it ended. It's really sad to see how blind we can all be.
I feel really bad for this girl. I pity her more than anything. I am probably the only high value guy she will ever interact with. My friend even said that she seems like she's been hurt by a lot of guys. That made me feel sad. I have empathy for her. But I also know that she's quite tactical. I mean she happens to kiss my house mate the night after we finally make peace. Unlikely.
At least I know why she sat in the corner watching me last week. She had heard by then what happened between me and my house mate. I don't like that every single thing I say, even in my bedroom, ends up in front of the world. People's total lack of discretion really annoys me. I want my relationships to be really private. I mean I get out all of my desire for publicity on here. I think that repeating my argument with my house mate to Sparkle would only serve to hurt her or make her feel bad. So whoever repeated it to her put a negative thing into the world.
I don't hate her or my house mate. I just don't trust either of them. So I have to cut them out of my life. It's the nature of the beast.
I feel really bad for this girl. I pity her more than anything. I am probably the only high value guy she will ever interact with. My friend even said that she seems like she's been hurt by a lot of guys. That made me feel sad. I have empathy for her. But I also know that she's quite tactical. I mean she happens to kiss my house mate the night after we finally make peace. Unlikely.
At least I know why she sat in the corner watching me last week. She had heard by then what happened between me and my house mate. I don't like that every single thing I say, even in my bedroom, ends up in front of the world. People's total lack of discretion really annoys me. I want my relationships to be really private. I mean I get out all of my desire for publicity on here. I think that repeating my argument with my house mate to Sparkle would only serve to hurt her or make her feel bad. So whoever repeated it to her put a negative thing into the world.
I don't hate her or my house mate. I just don't trust either of them. So I have to cut them out of my life. It's the nature of the beast.
Project with Sasha
So you guys have seen how much I love blogging on here. I am about to start a new audio blog this week with Sasha. We are going to be at Organic Seduction. Basically it will be the two of us talking about pickup, doing audio field reports and lay reports, and a stack of interviews. We are really going to focus on new talent out there. We are going to listen to anyone, as long as their techniques work. Really our focus is on bringing all systems together and giving people a chance to laugh and enjoy pickup. There are a few other podcasts out there that are pretty good, but Sasha is a professional comedian and I'm funnier than him so it should be super sick. Anyways, I have started the coding and as soon as he fixes his mic situation we will have a post. I'm really temted to record a field report right now just to test it, but I'll give him another day or two....heheheh
Monday, June 30, 2008
My life
I seem to only post things about pickup. But that's mostly because those are my most interesting stories. I have a ton of other things flying around my life. I'm in the middle of applying to finish my teaching masters at 3 unis in London. I did my phone interview with my 3rd choice Friday and the guy said I'm basically in. So I'm pretty pleased about that. I was so smooth on the phone. Game has really helped me with interviews and confidence in that arena. I am working on getting my other 2 applications sorted this week. I am waiting on transcripts now mostly. I am also still trying really hard to move into London as soon as possible. I have a ton of tutoring work sorted for the Summer and I think that I'm going to be teaching at an English camp for 2 weeks starting on Saturday. Just a little fun time to get away from it all. I plan on using that time to mostly work on writing music and my new podcast with Sasha.
100 Pushups
This website is amazing.
I started my challenge last week. At the starts I could barely crank out 21 in a row. In 5 more weeks I will be able to do 100. It's wicked hard. I can't wait to see how this turns out tho. It only takes 30 minutes or less a week and it's totally worth it. I'm keeping track of my stats and I will post my final results on here in a few weeks. I think it's a great program and I recommend everyone do it no matter what. It's a great accomplishment.
I started my challenge last week. At the starts I could barely crank out 21 in a row. In 5 more weeks I will be able to do 100. It's wicked hard. I can't wait to see how this turns out tho. It only takes 30 minutes or less a week and it's totally worth it. I'm keeping track of my stats and I will post my final results on here in a few weeks. I think it's a great program and I recommend everyone do it no matter what. It's a great accomplishment.
My Relationship with Sasha
So I have been hanging out with this guy a ton lately and you may have noticed that I've starting linking my posts to his version of the same events. I'm hoping that Soul will start his blog soon so that I can do the same thing with him. It's really funny to read different versions of the same event. Even though we met 2 weeks ago tonight, I have spent the night at Sasha's like 6 times. People think that we are childhood bestfriends, lovers, house mates, cousins or brothers. We have a symbiotic form of comedy. I already helped him out with a sketch and helped him write some lines. It's kind of a cool way to express my comedy. Maybe I will write more jokes for/with him in the future. Expect to see a lot more dual posts with him and I, at least until he moves back to Canada. There is also the strong possibility of us living together in Moscow in a year. This guy is a legend and has a really unique perspective on a lot of things. We are going to start a podcast together which I will be announcing in the next week or two. It will be informative, but more importantly, HILARIOUS!
Eric Clapton, Hyde Park and the Rat
This could be a super long FR, as we (mostly Sasha) opened 20-30 sets on Saturday. He was in a sketch Sunday with a toy rat on a string, so on Saturday we took a stack of flyers with us and took that rat for a walk in the park. Turns out there was a big concert on, so we worked the crowd for maybe 8 hours. It was nuts. I will focus on the highlights.
I saw a Polish girl with a flyer for a Master's Course in London. Since I just did my first MA phone interview the day before it was totally on my mind. I ended up talking for her for maybe 30 minutes. I only left because Sasha needed more flyers. When I'm talking about something I'm interested in, it's so easy to be comfortable. I think that's an important lesson. I got her number, but she moved to London 4 weeks ago and lives with her bf so I think it's cold.....
Later on we opened a 3set. I got some pics of Sasha with his girl. He was on a different page than me. He really pushed the escalation, while my girl was dating the other 2 girls closest friend. So it was impossible for me to escalate. Eventually they turned from loving him to hating him. I stayed in set bc my girl was actually a really nice person. She is the first Croation I have ever met. She kept pouring red wine down my throat. After Sasha left the other 2 girls were hating on him. Then they started talking about how only beautiful people should date beautiful people and ugly people should stick together. I was really surprised at the time, bc the main girl talking was a solid 5. My HB was the only one staying out of the talk. The other 2 kept saying how her and her boyfriend will have the most beautiful babies to her though....
When I thought about it later I realized that the other 2 were expressing their own physical insecurities and also tryin to wedge between me an the Croation girl. Who they actually barely knew. They talked about how she was their friends first girlfriend ever and how he would be afraid to ever break up with her. I see the writing on the wall with that one. I got the girl's facebook and she already added me. The other two tried to stop her, but she was cool.
The really amazing thing that I learned was that two girls who ejected Sasha because of his fast screening process turned out to be really low value people. They were shockingly superficial and lacked personalities. If I had left when he had, I would have thought he lost a good set. But now I have a lot more respect for his fast-screening style.
One last set. We opened up 4 American girls with about 15 guys (nerds) sitting right next to them. I decided to try and overcome my limiting belief, but I think it might be real. American girls suck so bad. When a girl says she's American it's like her telling me she has 2 dicks. I want out of that set. I plowed and got a bunch of pictures with these girls etc, but the whole time I felt like I was trying to game pretty losers. They were even from the worst sorority my uni had. After 25minutes we ejected from pure boredom. Sasha was never able to succesffuly distract more than 2 of the obstacles at any time for me. And he is one funny bastard. I think that tells you all you need to know!
I saw a Polish girl with a flyer for a Master's Course in London. Since I just did my first MA phone interview the day before it was totally on my mind. I ended up talking for her for maybe 30 minutes. I only left because Sasha needed more flyers. When I'm talking about something I'm interested in, it's so easy to be comfortable. I think that's an important lesson. I got her number, but she moved to London 4 weeks ago and lives with her bf so I think it's cold.....
Later on we opened a 3set. I got some pics of Sasha with his girl. He was on a different page than me. He really pushed the escalation, while my girl was dating the other 2 girls closest friend. So it was impossible for me to escalate. Eventually they turned from loving him to hating him. I stayed in set bc my girl was actually a really nice person. She is the first Croation I have ever met. She kept pouring red wine down my throat. After Sasha left the other 2 girls were hating on him. Then they started talking about how only beautiful people should date beautiful people and ugly people should stick together. I was really surprised at the time, bc the main girl talking was a solid 5. My HB was the only one staying out of the talk. The other 2 kept saying how her and her boyfriend will have the most beautiful babies to her though....
When I thought about it later I realized that the other 2 were expressing their own physical insecurities and also tryin to wedge between me an the Croation girl. Who they actually barely knew. They talked about how she was their friends first girlfriend ever and how he would be afraid to ever break up with her. I see the writing on the wall with that one. I got the girl's facebook and she already added me. The other two tried to stop her, but she was cool.
The really amazing thing that I learned was that two girls who ejected Sasha because of his fast screening process turned out to be really low value people. They were shockingly superficial and lacked personalities. If I had left when he had, I would have thought he lost a good set. But now I have a lot more respect for his fast-screening style.
One last set. We opened up 4 American girls with about 15 guys (nerds) sitting right next to them. I decided to try and overcome my limiting belief, but I think it might be real. American girls suck so bad. When a girl says she's American it's like her telling me she has 2 dicks. I want out of that set. I plowed and got a bunch of pictures with these girls etc, but the whole time I felt like I was trying to game pretty losers. They were even from the worst sorority my uni had. After 25minutes we ejected from pure boredom. Sasha was never able to succesffuly distract more than 2 of the obstacles at any time for me. And he is one funny bastard. I think that tells you all you need to know!
Saturday, June 28, 2008
The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
So after we leave the club around 1ish we start hunting for the bus home. We see two super hot babes changing shoes outside a club. We each open one at the same time. My brunette turned out to be way hotter on closer inspection. We have a good chat and she is actually really friendly. One of the nicest girls I've talked to in ages. Really interesting and we quickly built rapport. Sasha's conversation wasn't going as well. After about 5 minutes his girl grabs mine to go to another bar. Sasha is like we're going with them. So we tell them to walk in with us to get past the bouncers quickly. He tells me that both girls have a boyfriend.... Now this ruined my state instantly. I have a limiting belief in this area. But also he shouldn't have said it to me. I was really escalating with my girl and she certainly never mentioned a boyfriend. I told him about this later and he agreed that it was a mistake.
I still tried to plow through. We caught up with the girls at the bar. Chatted for a few more minutes and pushed our closes. I got a number and he got a facebook. I have a feeling that my close is super cold, but I haven't actually tried it yet. Maybe I'll text the girl today. She was really cool and beautiful. I was so thrown by the bf news that I didn't even get a pic with her. How shameful I know.
So we head back out to the bus stop and end up waiting there for about 40 minutes for the wrong bus! There is some 40yearold chick there. I'm super in state so I immediately push. Within about 2 minutes me and Sasha are hugging her from opposite sides. She was definately DTSR. Unfortunately, Sasha chickened out. He just took some pics of me making out with her. She was super aggressive and I almost choked on her tongue. I can only imagine how he is going to desdribe this all in this blog.... Too bad his camera doesn't have a flash. Phew!
I still tried to plow through. We caught up with the girls at the bar. Chatted for a few more minutes and pushed our closes. I got a number and he got a facebook. I have a feeling that my close is super cold, but I haven't actually tried it yet. Maybe I'll text the girl today. She was really cool and beautiful. I was so thrown by the bf news that I didn't even get a pic with her. How shameful I know.
So we head back out to the bus stop and end up waiting there for about 40 minutes for the wrong bus! There is some 40yearold chick there. I'm super in state so I immediately push. Within about 2 minutes me and Sasha are hugging her from opposite sides. She was definately DTSR. Unfortunately, Sasha chickened out. He just took some pics of me making out with her. She was super aggressive and I almost choked on her tongue. I can only imagine how he is going to desdribe this all in this blog.... Too bad his camera doesn't have a flash. Phew!
Friday Night Fate
So Mr M invites Sasha out to chill with him, 2 former entourage guys and some American girls. I am allowed to come along. Ha! It is all the way down in Clapham. So we get down there and it turns out the club is near a closed station. So we go to Clapham South and check out some bars. The entire chav army was out. I was afraid to game in these clubs. So we get a bastard taxi to Mr M's club and of course we get there 10 minutes to late to get in free. Wish we'd known it was free before 11. We meet the guys. It's like 10 entourage guys and no girls. The club is totally empty. It's nice to see some of my old homies etc. On the dance floor I see a sexy shot girl and she walks by and eye fucks the shit out of me. Holy crap! It's the shot girl from 2 weeks ago. She is a really sexy blond from my spitroast night. I immediately number close her. She goes on and on about how she lost me, got fired from that club and thought she would never see me again. It was so crazy. She invited me to see her the next night, but she is working! I don't wanna hang around while she works you know? Later on I run into 3 entourage guys gaming her and I roll up and I'm like hey baby. I just wanted to impress them. He He!! Anyways, she texted me a coupla times today. I'm trying to score the Day2, but we'll see what happens.
Brick Lane and Pizza Massacre
So Sasha and I head out to brick lane to day game and shop for some stuff to make his house more woman-friendly. So we go to brick lane, which was absolutely desolate. I see one girl walking around with a little suitcase. I run after her (because Sasha really pushed me) to find out what's in it. I chat for 3ish minutes and it's going so well that I run out of things to say. I'm still really nervous during the day and I hesitate so much. She was my only good set all day long.
Sasha decides we have to get some pizza so we go to sit down in some place. He starts joking with the waitress trying to get cheaper pizza. He thought he was being hilarious and it was funny, but I wasn't sure if it was totally calibrated. Then some guy who was on break stands up and becomes our waiter. He comes over and asks what we want to drink. I ask for some ice water and the guy is like we don't do ice. Now I didn't want to even be in this pretentious joint, but who doesn't do ice? Sasha goes "The don't give you ice to force you to pay for a drink if you want something cold." Right in front of the dude. He didn't like that at all. He comes back with two child sized glasses of water. I mean they looked like they came with an E Z Bake oven. What the hell?
So Sasha makes a comment about the smallest glasses on earth. And the guy goes into a rage and starts saying if we can't behave we gotta leave. Him and Sasha start just escalating and it's getting pretty real. He accuses Sasha of hitting on the waitress. Now the problem for me is that Sasha just joking sounds exactly like Sasha gaming. He's a comedian, what do you expect? Sasha calls the girl over and says was I hitting on you? And she says she wouldn't say no. I almost jumped in and said girl you're not pretty enough, but I was trying to avoid jail. The thing just got outa hand and we got thrown out. I mean the pizza guy was a total dick. I think part of it was that I started gaming his girlfriend while he was getting our water.
But I'm not sure. It was at least 90% Sasha's fault. Boy was he mad when we left. I wanted to jump in but I would have only escalated the problem. Sometimes guys can be so lame. He wanted to look tough I guess. I mean if they guy had taken a swing it woulda been the end of the world. Sasha looks like a wimp but he can kickbox. Anyways it didn't come to that. But later when Mr M was asking Sasha about his daygame technique I suggested they go for pizza!!!
Sasha decides we have to get some pizza so we go to sit down in some place. He starts joking with the waitress trying to get cheaper pizza. He thought he was being hilarious and it was funny, but I wasn't sure if it was totally calibrated. Then some guy who was on break stands up and becomes our waiter. He comes over and asks what we want to drink. I ask for some ice water and the guy is like we don't do ice. Now I didn't want to even be in this pretentious joint, but who doesn't do ice? Sasha goes "The don't give you ice to force you to pay for a drink if you want something cold." Right in front of the dude. He didn't like that at all. He comes back with two child sized glasses of water. I mean they looked like they came with an E Z Bake oven. What the hell?
So Sasha makes a comment about the smallest glasses on earth. And the guy goes into a rage and starts saying if we can't behave we gotta leave. Him and Sasha start just escalating and it's getting pretty real. He accuses Sasha of hitting on the waitress. Now the problem for me is that Sasha just joking sounds exactly like Sasha gaming. He's a comedian, what do you expect? Sasha calls the girl over and says was I hitting on you? And she says she wouldn't say no. I almost jumped in and said girl you're not pretty enough, but I was trying to avoid jail. The thing just got outa hand and we got thrown out. I mean the pizza guy was a total dick. I think part of it was that I started gaming his girlfriend while he was getting our water.
But I'm not sure. It was at least 90% Sasha's fault. Boy was he mad when we left. I wanted to jump in but I would have only escalated the problem. Sometimes guys can be so lame. He wanted to look tough I guess. I mean if they guy had taken a swing it woulda been the end of the world. Sasha looks like a wimp but he can kickbox. Anyways it didn't come to that. But later when Mr M was asking Sasha about his daygame technique I suggested they go for pizza!!!
Friday, June 27, 2008
Finally Cured???
So yesterday I got a pic in my email from my oneitis back in America. It was a pic that would have totally made me miss her a few months ago. But I felt nothing. It's really strange. Now I just feel a sadness where I used keep my love for her. It's a new feeling. I looked at a couple hundred pics of her with Sasha to see how it affected me. I didn't get sad at all. I think I might be finally emotionally detached from that poisonous relationship. I still have a ton of fond memories, but I think they are finally firmly in the past. It only took me 6months to really get free, but it's totally worth it. Maybe I will feel something different if I see her in person, but to be honest it's totally unlikely. She still talks to me like the AFC orbiter I used to be. Once you spend a year building a house, it's hard to move out! She writes these super short emails. If I email once a day, she emails once a week. If I email once a week, she emails once a month. If I email once a month, she never replies. It's a strange game. Mostly I've written her short emails to see how strictly she sticks to this. It's shockingly consistent. Anyways, I live in London and I live in London.
Punk
I went out to Punk last night with Sasha and his housemate. Sasha is a furious opener. He opens everyone and suddenly jumps into super state. I warm up slowly. I never really got into state last night. The music was lame and the people were arty and boring. I opened 10ish sets and at the end of the night I felt like I'd had a bad night. It's amazing what I find disappointing after just a few months. We ran a 3set early in the night that promised to come dance with us later. They ignored us for 2 hours, until I was dancing on stage with a couple girls around me. Then they absolutely loved us and ran across the dance floor at us. Social proof is shockingly powerful. We got pics with them. One girl was stunning in the face but had a big body. Damn shame. Even in the pics she is really pretty. I chatted to a chavy girl again and almost escalated into regret-town. Oh well. Overall I think I need to go to venues where there will be girls with personalities. I was shocked at how boring everyone was there. I'm really not into 18yearold girls anyways. But if a girl is that young, she's gotta bring something to the table. I almost fell asleep talking to everyone. Also, since when does it take 2 girl djs to be unable to mix? Surely one girl could trainwreck on her own? Ahhhhhhhhhh
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Short Sets
It's Tuesday. I'm drunk as hell. Tonight was so weird. I went to the battle of the bands final. Couldn't get in. Right as I wanted to go home, I run into 3 hotties that I've posted about before. This short smoking hot blond and her 2 friends. We bounce to another bar. I have a couple there and get wasted. I'm not gonna lie. Hehe. I saw a beautiful brunette at a table of 4 and my AA overwhelmed me DAMN Me!!! Sasha and Dr Yen have promised to cure my aa this weekend. Then we bounced to another bar. At some point tonight I saw Sparkle and my house mate. But not together. I think he actually never closed. He burned our friendship for nothing. He tried to talk to me and hug me late night but hell no man. Too late. I gotta protect my neck.
Ok so at the final bar. I ran like 20 sets. Just bouncing from one hot girl to the next. All social circle. I think I fucked up one with a really hot girl that is just too close to my social circle. But who cares about that. I opened one set of girls. Turns out I had chatted to one girl a month ago. I just super escalated and ended up finger blasting her while we were standing in a cirlce. It was so smooth. We kissed some. The other dude creeped her friend out and they had to bounce. I definately had the SNL in the bag. Oh well. It was so nice. I asked the girl for her number just to be polite, but we were on the same page. If I run into her again I will bang her. She kept saying that the guy after her friend took too long to escalate. Hot damn. Girls are smarter than men. I went in with a really strong Rokker frame.
Other stuff happened after she left. Nothing interesting. I was so drunk. So my game was off. I was just pushing escalation with all these girls in my social circle.... Probably because I'm moving out of this one horse town soon. I just can't be bothered with boring stuff you know? Anyways, it was nice to meet a cool girl who didn't make anything weird. I mean I really didn't want her number. It was so safe.
Is this an FR or an LR? I really dunno?
Ok so at the final bar. I ran like 20 sets. Just bouncing from one hot girl to the next. All social circle. I think I fucked up one with a really hot girl that is just too close to my social circle. But who cares about that. I opened one set of girls. Turns out I had chatted to one girl a month ago. I just super escalated and ended up finger blasting her while we were standing in a cirlce. It was so smooth. We kissed some. The other dude creeped her friend out and they had to bounce. I definately had the SNL in the bag. Oh well. It was so nice. I asked the girl for her number just to be polite, but we were on the same page. If I run into her again I will bang her. She kept saying that the guy after her friend took too long to escalate. Hot damn. Girls are smarter than men. I went in with a really strong Rokker frame.
Other stuff happened after she left. Nothing interesting. I was so drunk. So my game was off. I was just pushing escalation with all these girls in my social circle.... Probably because I'm moving out of this one horse town soon. I just can't be bothered with boring stuff you know? Anyways, it was nice to meet a cool girl who didn't make anything weird. I mean I really didn't want her number. It was so safe.
Is this an FR or an LR? I really dunno?
Monday, June 23, 2008
My Story So Far
Tomorrow marks my 6month anniversary in this lifestyle. On Christmas ever last year I realized I could never trust my 1itis and that I would die if I didn't change my life. I am so proud of how far I have come and I have a clear vision of how to move forward in my life. I have opened 700 sets, including 10 street sets (2 with sunlight!!!). I have slept with 3 great girls (and one great guy!..ahahah). I have expanded my friend group and met amazing people from all over the world dedicated to improving their lives. I have shared everything with my dad and almost everything with mom about game and my life. I have learned to break through mental barriers and change my life as a man. I have dropped a lot of weight and really started to exercise. I have started learning new dance moves again and practicing my martial arts.
I have so much more to go! I still need to open 1300 more sets before they start counting. I need to really focus on being comfortable in the daytime. I want to expand my friendships and move into central London. I need to change universities and take care of all that entails. I need to lose more weight and start really changing my diet. I need to cut soda out of my life 100percent. I need to develop a strong social network of friends I can trust and give value to, without any expectation of return. I want to meet more beautiful and amazing people. I need to crush my social anxieties. I need to expand my network and really find out my destination.
Something happened tonight. That reminded me of my motivation. I was sitting across from a beautiful girl on the subway for about 6 minutes. 6 months ago I would have looked at her and never considered opening her, just enjoyed her beauty. Today I thought about how to open a single girl across and a few seats down on the subway. By Christmas I want opening her to be like breathing. I want to be unchained. Able to talk to any person I want to, in any situation, of any gender. I seek and demand emotional and social freedom!
I have so much more to go! I still need to open 1300 more sets before they start counting. I need to really focus on being comfortable in the daytime. I want to expand my friendships and move into central London. I need to change universities and take care of all that entails. I need to lose more weight and start really changing my diet. I need to cut soda out of my life 100percent. I need to develop a strong social network of friends I can trust and give value to, without any expectation of return. I want to meet more beautiful and amazing people. I need to crush my social anxieties. I need to expand my network and really find out my destination.
Something happened tonight. That reminded me of my motivation. I was sitting across from a beautiful girl on the subway for about 6 minutes. 6 months ago I would have looked at her and never considered opening her, just enjoyed her beauty. Today I thought about how to open a single girl across and a few seats down on the subway. By Christmas I want opening her to be like breathing. I want to be unchained. Able to talk to any person I want to, in any situation, of any gender. I seek and demand emotional and social freedom!
SunDayGame
I wrote this on my phone in a bar a few hours ago. I'm finally home now. Phew!!!
So i went out for day game today. First i spent the afternoon with zigzag filming soul. My arm wanted to die after a while. I was in the frame of spotting sets for soul instead of just approaching myself. I got some good stuff i think. Then soul went off for a date and we went to meet up with sasha and his friend. I managed to go direct on two stunning girls with a lot of pushing from zig. I was so scared and nervous so neither one transitioned. But at least i faced the tiger. Zig did two as well. Sasha has a much different style from soul. It just seems like so much more work. I work that hard at night trying to build attraction by being funny. I would rather just go direct. I just need to find a way to get into state. I am proud of opening two stunners even if i lost both sets. I just need more time in the field. Its like my approach meter is back at zero. We are in a bar now without sasha. We are so tired that we cant talk to anyone. No matter how
Cute. I have no complaints. I just want to go to bed. Now. There are some really cute girls here. But there is nothing i can do. I can barely look. At least i feel no emotion. I wish i could get surgery to remove my aa. Oh well. Its just weakness leaving my soul.
Two Weeks Ago
I wrote this on my phone two weeks ago and forgot to upload it. From my mobile....
So i am sitting in my backyard. Listening to some tunes topless in the sun smoking a cigarette. Its so good. What a perfect moment. All my work stress is just out of my mind. I am in the moment. Months of inner game work are paying off.
So i am sitting in my backyard. Listening to some tunes topless in the sun smoking a cigarette. Its so good. What a perfect moment. All my work stress is just out of my mind. I am in the moment. Months of inner game work are paying off.
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Going Direct
I went out with Sheriff, Soul and Optimist tonight. They all brought some friends I didn't know as well, but none of them impressed me so I've forgotten their names. Yes I'm wicked drunk. So you better read this.
I had crippling aa early in the night. I got really nervous and Sheriff yelled at me. When it comes to coaching I really respond to cruelty. Maybe I am a masochist. He got me to open a fat girl and it was like butter. I just asked about the menu and transitioned. I ran some other mediocre sets walking around the club. I opened two sexy blonds by asking if I could leave my empty glass on their table. I was in set like 90 minutes I think. Optimist showed up at the perfect time and winged me. Both girls turned out to be giants. Like 6foot6 or some crap. I number and facebook closed my giant, but she has a boyfriend in Oxford. I ejected after pushing as hard as I could. I ran into them later and it was lame. GRrrrrrrrrr.
I ran some other sets that went nowhere but who wants to read about that? I am not here to bore you. Oh wait I totally am. Soul is trying to go to sleep now, so I will cut to the chase. I opened one girl direct on the street. I didn't think, I just had to do it. She was insanely beautiful. I got massive IOIs from her and her friend. She tried to disqualify herself by saying she has a 5year old. I told her that I have a 12year old daughter. The girl loved my accent. Her friend loved me. I got a couple of cute pics and a facebook close. The girl has no mobile.... I then left and went to Soul. He was like why did you leave? I had no excuse. I went back to find them and they were getting into a little rickshaw. I pushed to get an instadate, but it was too late. At least I pushed as hard as I could. I'll post pics as soon as I can. This girl was so hot I couldn't go direct on any more girls, it just wouldn't have felt honest. It was so nice.
I had crippling aa early in the night. I got really nervous and Sheriff yelled at me. When it comes to coaching I really respond to cruelty. Maybe I am a masochist. He got me to open a fat girl and it was like butter. I just asked about the menu and transitioned. I ran some other mediocre sets walking around the club. I opened two sexy blonds by asking if I could leave my empty glass on their table. I was in set like 90 minutes I think. Optimist showed up at the perfect time and winged me. Both girls turned out to be giants. Like 6foot6 or some crap. I number and facebook closed my giant, but she has a boyfriend in Oxford. I ejected after pushing as hard as I could. I ran into them later and it was lame. GRrrrrrrrrr.
I ran some other sets that went nowhere but who wants to read about that? I am not here to bore you. Oh wait I totally am. Soul is trying to go to sleep now, so I will cut to the chase. I opened one girl direct on the street. I didn't think, I just had to do it. She was insanely beautiful. I got massive IOIs from her and her friend. She tried to disqualify herself by saying she has a 5year old. I told her that I have a 12year old daughter. The girl loved my accent. Her friend loved me. I got a couple of cute pics and a facebook close. The girl has no mobile.... I then left and went to Soul. He was like why did you leave? I had no excuse. I went back to find them and they were getting into a little rickshaw. I pushed to get an instadate, but it was too late. At least I pushed as hard as I could. I'll post pics as soon as I can. This girl was so hot I couldn't go direct on any more girls, it just wouldn't have felt honest. It was so nice.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Friday Night with Sasha
My field reports are always too long, as I try to document every set I enter. Today I'm just too weary. It was more than twenty last night. I felt like death on two legs when I dragged Sasha home at 3... But there were two sets I would like to remember.
The first was a warm approach. I had to get through this gay guy who got really mad when I asked if the girl was his girlfriend. Maybe he was joking but keeping a straight face, but I really didn't understand the dude. I was able to kino, micro-isolate and lock in against the bar. This black girl was well sexy and all party girl. The gay dude kept saying that they were leaving to go to an orgy. I'm not sure if that was supposed to impress me or creep me out, but I was simply unaffected. I have seen Short Bus. HA! Anyways, I think I was in there but I lost the close because I was simply overwhelmed by the strangeness of the situation. The girl was trading intense sexual glances with me, but really I just couldn't keep up. I joke about being a small town boy, but for once I did feel like it. Overall I have no complaints, except I didn't take a picture. Sorry!
The second girl was also black. We opened her as we were walking out of the tube station for a venue change. She was stunning. Tall, graceful, black and French. Sasha wasn't attracted to her at all, but boy I sure was. She looked like a model. We vibed for maybe 5-10 minutes while she was waiting for her friend. I never managed to pull the trigger. More because I didn't see the tipping point than because I didn't want to or felt escalation anxiety. I have never closed a girl on the street and I simply need to fix that. Hanging out with Sasha and Soul should repair my problem. But boy was she sexy.
I got some pics with club sets I ran later, but nothing special happened.
SASHAS VERSION
The first was a warm approach. I had to get through this gay guy who got really mad when I asked if the girl was his girlfriend. Maybe he was joking but keeping a straight face, but I really didn't understand the dude. I was able to kino, micro-isolate and lock in against the bar. This black girl was well sexy and all party girl. The gay dude kept saying that they were leaving to go to an orgy. I'm not sure if that was supposed to impress me or creep me out, but I was simply unaffected. I have seen Short Bus. HA! Anyways, I think I was in there but I lost the close because I was simply overwhelmed by the strangeness of the situation. The girl was trading intense sexual glances with me, but really I just couldn't keep up. I joke about being a small town boy, but for once I did feel like it. Overall I have no complaints, except I didn't take a picture. Sorry!
The second girl was also black. We opened her as we were walking out of the tube station for a venue change. She was stunning. Tall, graceful, black and French. Sasha wasn't attracted to her at all, but boy I sure was. She looked like a model. We vibed for maybe 5-10 minutes while she was waiting for her friend. I never managed to pull the trigger. More because I didn't see the tipping point than because I didn't want to or felt escalation anxiety. I have never closed a girl on the street and I simply need to fix that. Hanging out with Sasha and Soul should repair my problem. But boy was she sexy.
I got some pics with club sets I ran later, but nothing special happened.
SASHAS VERSION
Friday, June 20, 2008
Big City Friends
So after my FR, Sasha convinces me to blow off my train and stay at his apt. Bastad! So of course I do it and we go looking for more girls. I'm in a super mellow state after my romantic close, but Sasha is totally in state and opens a ton of girls on the street. We bounce around a couple of bars and club, but nothing really sticks for me. I spend most of my time talking to Ziggy. The guy was in a really mellow state and got eye-banged by like a dozen girls. So I learned a lot about that from him. I have always missed that AI, but now I'm watching out for it! We eventually go back to Sasha's and the three of us talk all night and I catch a train at like 7.
These guys were just really sound and open. It's nice to meet guys that have really strong game and our normal(ish). We talked about game, our strengths and weakness and tons of normal stuff. I am going back to chill with these guys. But as I'm trying to move up to London, I have to build a new social circle. I don't want the world to keep thinking of me as Soul's bitch. Ha!
Anyways I had a good time with all the guys in their crew and it's just great to be around guys who are focused on bringing each other up and giving lots of value.
Safe.
These guys were just really sound and open. It's nice to meet guys that have really strong game and our normal(ish). We talked about game, our strengths and weakness and tons of normal stuff. I am going back to chill with these guys. But as I'm trying to move up to London, I have to build a new social circle. I don't want the world to keep thinking of me as Soul's bitch. Ha!
Anyways I had a good time with all the guys in their crew and it's just great to be around guys who are focused on bringing each other up and giving lots of value.
Safe.
Laughing at Sasha
I went up to London for the night last night to check out Sasha's comedy gig and then meet up with Dr. Yen for some danger danger. Unfortunately, I never got into the club to see Yen, but this story is about what happened before.....
I get super lost even tho I have two maps to find the pub. I walk in and I see Sasha talking to two girls. I hang back to try and peep the scenario for a second, as I don't want to blow his set. A moment presents itelf and I walk over to wing him. He's like let's go grab a sandwich. So he and I leave the bar to go to tescos or something and he tells me his target. Lucky for me the friend is a sexy brunette. So I have no complaints at all!
We go back into the set and just start vibing. Eventually, he ejects to talk to other people coming to see his show. I'm just beeing funny, vibing and escalating kino. I was really on fire. The main roleplay we are joking through is being rich, living in the Caribbean and her spending all my money. I joke about my mom making is matching monogramed towels. She asks about matching robes and I tell her she can't have one. She has to walk around naked. I also ping out my sexuality when she asks about what kinda car and I tell her a convertible so that she can show off her bikini top every day...then....Soul shows up and I invite him into the set. He stays for a minute and leaves. I keep working the girl I like and I set up a stronger sexual frame than I usually do. I just don't hide my attraction. It's going really smoothly, so I eject to go talk to my friends. I tell them they can gossip about the boy she's in love with and look at my rock hard ass as I walk away as well.
I go talk to Soul for a while and then we go upstairs to watch Sasha try to be funny. I sit down with Soul on my left and I conveniently leave two chairs open on my right. Some LSS guy walks up and says can I sit here? And I say sure that'll be great, really sarcastically. He sits down. I'm like crap! The girls sit together a few rows back and I think about murder. Then my hero Sasha orders everyone to move seats closer to the front. I stay and get a girl on each side of me. But HBJew says "I don't want to sit next to him, he's gonna touch me." Looking back I think she was joking, but it really shut down my kino. I was like damn! She pre-framed me so well. I try to get her number and hand her my phone. She closes it and hands it back. What a powerful frame test. I am thinking that I've lost the set, but I try to hide my emotions. Nothing much happens during the show as we are listening and get yelled at when we talk. Sasha I think called me out for flirting early on, but I ignored it. It was fine.
After the show I stay upstairs talking to guys and stuff. Everyone is kissing Sasha's ass, but at least nobody asks if I'm his student! Eventually, we go downstairs and I talk to some other dudes and meet ZigZag, who is sound as a pound. Sasha says he wants to keep pushing the set and we go inside to find the girls sitting at a table, basically waiting. His girl even says to Sasha that she was gonna go, but HBJew made her stay for one more drink. I sit down at the table across from her. We just start talking and Sasha is working his. There is some good kino. The girl reaches across the table to hold the top of Sasha's hand and HBJew puts her hand on mine. I put my other hand on top and start really sexually escalating. The tension was so thick. I felt like the whole room could feel our sexual tension. She is mirroring me hard and I am in the moment. I just lean in to kiss her and time freezes. At the last second she pulls back and the tension snaps. I look around and everyone at the table is looking at us. They could all feel the tension. I talked to Zigzag later and he agreed.
We keep talking and then I say have to catch my train and the girls say the same. On the walk to the station I have my arm around her and she's really touching me back. When we break contact she grabs me. I get her number and build comfort. Lot's of future projections. At the top of the tube Sasha pulls his girl to the side. So I do the same. The other 2 dudes hang back. It's really nice to be out with professionals. My girl has her back to Sasha and his. I pull her close and she let's me goodnight kiss both cheeks. I tell her that her friend is kissing Sasha and I just demand the kiss. It happens. It was actually really sexy and romantic. She was a good kisser. I definately want to see her again.
PS I didn't take any photos. It was a low energy set and I got big city distracted.
I get super lost even tho I have two maps to find the pub. I walk in and I see Sasha talking to two girls. I hang back to try and peep the scenario for a second, as I don't want to blow his set. A moment presents itelf and I walk over to wing him. He's like let's go grab a sandwich. So he and I leave the bar to go to tescos or something and he tells me his target. Lucky for me the friend is a sexy brunette. So I have no complaints at all!
We go back into the set and just start vibing. Eventually, he ejects to talk to other people coming to see his show. I'm just beeing funny, vibing and escalating kino. I was really on fire. The main roleplay we are joking through is being rich, living in the Caribbean and her spending all my money. I joke about my mom making is matching monogramed towels. She asks about matching robes and I tell her she can't have one. She has to walk around naked. I also ping out my sexuality when she asks about what kinda car and I tell her a convertible so that she can show off her bikini top every day...then....Soul shows up and I invite him into the set. He stays for a minute and leaves. I keep working the girl I like and I set up a stronger sexual frame than I usually do. I just don't hide my attraction. It's going really smoothly, so I eject to go talk to my friends. I tell them they can gossip about the boy she's in love with and look at my rock hard ass as I walk away as well.
I go talk to Soul for a while and then we go upstairs to watch Sasha try to be funny. I sit down with Soul on my left and I conveniently leave two chairs open on my right. Some LSS guy walks up and says can I sit here? And I say sure that'll be great, really sarcastically. He sits down. I'm like crap! The girls sit together a few rows back and I think about murder. Then my hero Sasha orders everyone to move seats closer to the front. I stay and get a girl on each side of me. But HBJew says "I don't want to sit next to him, he's gonna touch me." Looking back I think she was joking, but it really shut down my kino. I was like damn! She pre-framed me so well. I try to get her number and hand her my phone. She closes it and hands it back. What a powerful frame test. I am thinking that I've lost the set, but I try to hide my emotions. Nothing much happens during the show as we are listening and get yelled at when we talk. Sasha I think called me out for flirting early on, but I ignored it. It was fine.
After the show I stay upstairs talking to guys and stuff. Everyone is kissing Sasha's ass, but at least nobody asks if I'm his student! Eventually, we go downstairs and I talk to some other dudes and meet ZigZag, who is sound as a pound. Sasha says he wants to keep pushing the set and we go inside to find the girls sitting at a table, basically waiting. His girl even says to Sasha that she was gonna go, but HBJew made her stay for one more drink. I sit down at the table across from her. We just start talking and Sasha is working his. There is some good kino. The girl reaches across the table to hold the top of Sasha's hand and HBJew puts her hand on mine. I put my other hand on top and start really sexually escalating. The tension was so thick. I felt like the whole room could feel our sexual tension. She is mirroring me hard and I am in the moment. I just lean in to kiss her and time freezes. At the last second she pulls back and the tension snaps. I look around and everyone at the table is looking at us. They could all feel the tension. I talked to Zigzag later and he agreed.
We keep talking and then I say have to catch my train and the girls say the same. On the walk to the station I have my arm around her and she's really touching me back. When we break contact she grabs me. I get her number and build comfort. Lot's of future projections. At the top of the tube Sasha pulls his girl to the side. So I do the same. The other 2 dudes hang back. It's really nice to be out with professionals. My girl has her back to Sasha and his. I pull her close and she let's me goodnight kiss both cheeks. I tell her that her friend is kissing Sasha and I just demand the kiss. It happens. It was actually really sexy and romantic. She was a good kisser. I definately want to see her again.
PS I didn't take any photos. It was a low energy set and I got big city distracted.